Facebook Detox Day 2 – the addict comes clean

It is truly incredible to realize how much of my energy and time I have given to Social Media and particularly Facebook in the last few years!
I woke up this morning as usual at 5.30am and made the decision not to turn on computer immediately. And then I began to notice all the times I automatically turn towards Facebook. In the gaps between things I would ‘plug in’ and check out what’s happening and then would be drawn in to the Facebook world. Trouble with this is that it becomes habitual and unconscious, and then we become ADDICTED to it.
Suddenly I have been plunged in to asking myself questions.
Number 1 question I am asking: What am I doing this for? What is the purpose?
There is always a purpose in what we do. It isn’t always a positive one, or even the one we think it is, but there is always a purpose.
Until we ask the question in an authentic way we will not know. Human beings are very self deceptive. Remember, at least 90% of our actions are unconscious and only 10% or so are the ones we are aware of. We are governed by deep forces. Our ego is VERY CLEVER like a wily fox and will tell us stories about what we do and what we are doing things for. Sometimes these stories are true and beneficial, but sometimes they are limiting and untrue. Only awareness and discernment can unravel which is which.
And of course at the end of the day it’s all love, it’s all ok and the most beneficial course of action is relaxation and love.
So now I find myself asking, what am I running this page (I run 12 pages on Facebook) for?
You see, for me, it’s not just about time, it’s more about energy (I talk about energy on my site). I want my energy to go to places where it’s useful, flowing, creative and productive. Being focused, not in a tight way, but in a relaxed way, means staying in the energy field of one’s being. Just like a spiritual master, or a zen buddhist or a practitioner of martial arts.
And Social Media is SO DISTRACTING! What chance do we have to stay softly in our energy field when we are pulled this way and that, this comment does this, this picture does that, and before we know it we are down a rabbit hole and we have no idea how we even got there!  It is the Facebook Matrix!!

Hence my Holiday..I have, in the past, been highly addicted to many things. Drugs, Alcohol, Cigarettes, Sugar, Crazy relationships. I love to hide and merge with things..It’s a Piscean Moon thing. If you understand Astrology you will understand how powerful that can be. So I need to be vigilant. And something has suddenly shifted within me. I see where it serves me and where it doesn’t serve me, and I am making the adjustments.
I have always been like this with my addictions. Dropping one’s addiction is a decision made in the heart and mind.. It is an inner switch and a stepping into one’s inner authority. You cannot drop an addiction until you see where something no longer serves you, and once you do see that then the majority of the decision is made.
If you can’t make that decision or you complain that it’s too hard, then you are not ready and have not actually reached that decision. It’s simple. I ‘tried’ to give up smoking three times and each time some external event triggered an inner emotion and I reached for the ‘fags’. Truth was I thought I wanted to give up but I still carried a part of me that didn’t.
And then I got so demoralized by my failure I went deeper into myself and found that dis-empowered part of myself and asked what he wanted and why he wanted to keep smoking. And then the decision came from a deeper place within me, and I knew I had given up smoking in that moment. Dropping addiction happens in a moment. Of course it takes time for the physical body to catch up and go through it’s process (detox etc) but the power is in the mind, and when the mind is made up from the deepest place, it’s JOB DONE.
And so back to Facebook. It is not a bad thing. In fact I’m not talking about Facebook. I’m talking about my tendencies, and maybe about yours. The tendency to lose oneself . The tendency to get distracted. The tendency to put things off. The tendency to merge with things.
Life is a river, nothing is fixed for very long. We keep swimming and flowing and changing and growing. It’s all ok and not a problem. This is part of my growth. I’m enjoying it.
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