Chronic Disease and the Magic Bullet Syndrome

This weekend I was asked again about how I healed Ulcerative Colitis by a third party who was trying to ‘help’ someone in their family who was desperate and suffering. I have been asked this question in various forms many times, and been asked for ‘tips and suggestions’ about what to do.

And I have to say there is something about the asking of these questions in this way that frustrates me so much.

Why?

Because it implicitly suggests and hopes that healing a major chronic disease is something that can be done easily without making much change or dramatic transformation, as if there is some secret ‘magic bullet’ that I found that instantly solved the whole thing and allowed me to carry on with my life the same way without changing anything.

I dont mean this implicit suggestion is even conscious on the questioners part, or the sufferers part. It comes more from not knowing and desperately hoping that they won’t have to do THAT much.

Because the simple fact is that people don’t want to change that much. Even when they are ill. It may sound shocking but a lot of people are so stuck in their lives, emotions, habits, thoughts and beliefs, that they would rather endure chronic illness than venture beyond the safety zone of their lives and step into the unknown. The mind and emotions desperately want safety and security of the known. And that is what you have to leave behind if you are going to heal anything.

It is exactly the same journey and challenge on the spiritual path. You cannot reach awakening or enlightenment while your strongest desire is to stay in the realm of the known, which is where it is most comfortable.

Here is where it gets a bit strange. It is called the ‘comfort zone’ but actually I’ve never met anyone inside it who is very comfortable. True comfort is found where comfort zone dissolves and the walls of false protection come crumbling down.
There is no place for what is false in spirituality OR healing.

So to return to my point. When I get asked these questions I have to respond truthfully. This is the kind of thing I say.

Dear ……

The journey of healing for me was an extraordinary undertaking that totally changed my life. I didn’t expect it but it happened because I surrendered to it and gave myself to it 100% without holding anything back. It took at least 10 years of dedication and struggle, self love and warrior-like strength.

It doesn’t have to take that long for everyone BUT it DOES take the same amount of courage and resourcefulness. Chronic illness, by the time it manifests as symptoms, has probably been lurking in the system for many years. It has something to do with many aspects of one’s life, from the physical to the emotional and the mental. Some of those things can be changed, looked at and transformed. There is no magic bullet to this, although there are helpful things. It is a big journey and a profound invitation for those who experience it. It is actually life itself rising up and saying, ‘Something you have been doing, some ways of living, eating, thinking, some emotions you have been carrying, no longer serve you and you need to change them.’

The experiencer can take that message as self blame or self negation, in which case they will suffer more, or they can step up to the challenge and make a big decision that they will meet this with openness, strength, vulnerability, willingness and power.’ With those qualities, with a lot of support, preferably from natural healers, functional doctors, and appropriate therapists, then that person will, step by step, slowly slowly, go on their journey. No one knows where it will lead. That is the mystery.

But I will guarantee you that it will change them, make them deeper and wiser, more self loving, more aware, more powerful, and more knowledgable than any course in pharmaceutical medication could.

And they may heal their chronic illness.

Thats why it’s difficult to offer tips and suggestions.

With great love and kindness.

Kavi’

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What Disease?

How did I heal Ulcerative Colitis?
I didn’t.
What I did was remove what was triggering the inflammation and reactivity in my struggling body.
All the words ‘Ulcerative Colitis’ mean is ulceration of the colon, inflammation of the colon. That is a description not a disease.
It turned out to be toxic residue from years of drug abuse.
It turned out to be heavy emotional burden and traumas from youth.
It tuned out to be heavy metals.
It turned out to be liver stagnation.
It turned out to be lymphatic congestion.

All these were resolved almost fully with serious and focused detoxification and nourishment of the organism.
And with serious and focused emotional healing, releasing what was stuck in the body and mind system.
And getting some health going again.
With exercise, fresh air and relaxation.

At no point did I do anything about ‘Ulcerative Colitis.’

But magically, or obviously, by the time I finished my 21 day water fast, and since then, I have had NO SYMPTOMS at all of this disease they call Ulcerative Colitis.

As far as they are concerned I still have it.

As far as I’m concerned its vanished because I didn’t have any ‘disease’ in the first place. I had symptoms, sign posts, indicators of deep issues that were causing me big problems.

I hope you get this and show it to anyone who has chronic issues.

Don’t let the diagnosis define you. Think bigger and deeper.

Get wise and aware.

Is Chronic Disease the Price we Pay for Modern Life?

I think we have a problem. A big problem facing the whole of society, no matter which country we are in (unless its a very natural and simple one far away from modern life)

That problem is that we are in danger of accepting chronic illness, and particularly auto immune related illness, AS THE NORM. We are in danger of accepting that auto immunity is a natural response to a toxic environment, and we are attempting to pacify the body, hide the symptoms and label the disease but we are not, en masse, or from the highest level of politics, doing anything about it from the environmental perspective.

I believe we actually think that chronic disease is the price we pay for modern urban living.

AND IT MAY BE TRUE.

When we draw back and look at this issue from a collective, national and global standpoint we see some terrifying patterns. Obviously from the personal position we don’t care about global patterns or what it’s even caused by, because we are so preoccupied and taken up with our own journey of healing or intervention. But if the very root of our illness is our constant reactivity to aspects of our environment that we can never escape then we have a problem. We will never heal enough to feel great or truly healthy, but we will simply carry around low grade or high grade symptoms and fend off acute illness for as long as possible until we finally succumb.

If the very root of our illness is our constant reactivity to aspects of our environment that we can never escape then we have a problem.

So many people are sick. So many people are chronically sick, acutely sick, low grade sick, only just able to function sick.
Chronic disease is epidemic, no one doubts that. Since the 20th Century burst open, with its wars and its extraordinary industrialization, its chemicals and factories and intense farming, chronic disease has been growing. But since the 1990’s and the turn of this Century things have escalated, and as far as I see, hear and experience as I travel around, they don’t look like stopping. It is out of control. If it was murder, terrorism or car crashes we would be freaking out. But because it is chronic illness we don’t bat an eyelid.

Wow!

My feeling is thus: We should NEVER accept chronic illness as normal. Just because its the appropriate response of the immune system and nervous system to a toxic and highly stressful, chemical laden, environment, that in itself is no reason to accept it as normal. We have to do everything and anything, personally and collectively, environmentally and politically, to deal with the environmental triggers, to reduce chemical toxicity, to clean up air, water and city, to actually study wifi and discuss the dangers.

Here is what we can do. GET AS HEALTHY AS POSSIBLE, without being tight or rigid about it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not talking about diets or losing weight (I DO mean finding your natural weight), I am talking about doing everything in your power to detox your lymphatic system, clear up your gut health, reduce stress, improve sleep, hydration and vegetable intake. Choose organic and non GMO ALWAYS! Exercise the body, sweat and breathe. Release emotional stuckness, rigid thoughts and beliefs and RELAX! Get out in the sun, dance and walk in nature. 

Remove toxic products as much as possible from your life, your house, bathroom and car. They are everywhere. Research what is natural and buy it. Prioritize health above almost everything else, except maybe your kids. If you have kids, prioritize THEIR health! 

Did I say sort out your gut? Detox your brain, your gut, your liver, heal your adrenals and kidneys. Research the dangers of wifi and start to do what you can to protect yourself from the danger. At least don’t sleep with your phone.

All of this you could do, sick or not. And I promise you it will help your body defense system deal with today’s toxic load. You will be the healthiest person in the hospital. And even though you may still be diagnosed with some chronic condition you won’t even feel it because you will be strong and healthy. A strange idea I know but it seems to be the times we live in.

Let me know what you think.

What Place Does HOPE Have in Healing

We can live with hope, and avoid despair, if we learn to surrender our attachment to what we think our health outcome should be, and instead be present to the healing journey as it unfolds  –  Joanna Garritano

I had a long conversation about health with someone yesterday. He had health issues and I told him of my journey, the short version, but it did include the bit about my diagnosis results and the prognosis handed to me by the consultant in a London Hospital. I go into detail about this encounter in my book http://a.co/duWS3Lu but suffice to say it was a pivotal moment in my journey.

For your benefit, this is a short description. The consultant was aloof and, dare I say it, arrogant. That was my feeling, subjectively of course. He sat in front of me and said 3 things.
1. What you have (Inflammatory Bowel Disease) is incurable.
2. You will be on medication for life.
3. You may well have to have some, or all, of your colon removed.

When I questioned him he added a 4th blow.

4. There was nothing you can do, no diet would help, no natural medicine would work, nothing.

Honestly, it makes my blood boil right now just thinking about it.

It makes my blood boil because he was WRONG, and because many people who are not as feisty, rebellious, or informed, as I am (and was even then), may well believe him, throw themselves into his hands and GIVE UP ALL HOPE.

That makes me furious.  Because I seriously don’t believe it to be true. And I am living proof of it.

12 years since that diagnosis and prognosis and I never took ANY medication for it. I have NO SYMPTOMS of IBD at all, no ulcerations, no blood, no mucus, and when I’m tested there are no signs of inflammation. So, as we like to say these days.

What!

Sorry to be dramatic and animated but I think you can understand how it feels to me.

I could have had my colon removed, for no good reason. I could have started taking steroids, anti inflammatories etc etc and been dependent on them for the rest of my life..And so on. It could have been the end of me. As it turns out it was actually the beginning of a long and deeply transformative journey.

When I reflected on this experience I realized why I was so angry. Because what was at stake here was HOPE.

Hope is a fundamental part of healing. Its not some by-product, some throwaway part of the human condition. It is an integral part of us.

I don’t think you can heal without hope. Hope creates an energy that drives or pulls us forward. If you take hope away you don’t, in the case of illness, create acceptance, you create resignation and despair. You cannot heal or transform if resignation or despair are the dominant energies in your system. We are not mechanical robots, we are subtle, complex, mysterious life forms that have unique and powerful abilities to change things simply through the power of our beliefs, our attention, and our consciousness itself. 

We are not mechanical robots, we are subtle, complex, mysterious life forms that have unique and powerful abilities to change things simply through the power of our beliefs, our attention, and our consciousness itself. 

Whatever positive feelings and emotions you can muster in the face of illness are welcome. Be they joy, laughter, hope, love, or peace, they all help by flooding the body with helpful and healing hormones that uplift the whole organism and give it life force.

Conversely whatever negative feelings or emotions flood the body, the opposite may well happen. they depress and downgrade us. They slow things down, they deflate us and allow for negativity to flood the body.

If you sit for a moment and consider this, feel the energy of joy, love and laughter and how they FEEL in your body, and then you consciously consider despair or resignation and how it feels in the body you would have to agree with me. They are very different. So hope is  a valuable part of the healing process. 

BUT BE CAUTIOUS. Remember the words at the start of this blog.

“We can live with hope, and avoid despair, if we learn to surrender our attachment to what we think our health outcome should be, and instead be present to the healing journey as it unfolds.”

Surrendering attachment to the way we THINK it should look, or the way we want it to look, is so important. I really got this key point somewhere down the path. I actually had a profound moment  during a very dark period when I fell into despair. I was tormented and suffering physically, I had no idea what was going to happen and I was at the end of my tether. I walked into some local woods by myself and lay down among the leaves and fell into what felt like a deep well. I desperately wanted an end to my suffering, mainly from my emotional and mental suffering.

I then found myself speaking to God…whatever that means..And I said, “God, I no longer care whether you take my physical body or not, I hand that over to you, but I want love in my heart, and I want an end to my trauma, to my anger and to my emotional pain. I want some peace.”

It was as though I had realized that, although ultimately I had no power over whether my physical body would heal or not, I DID have power to decide whether to let go of my emotional baggage once and for all, willingly.

And something happened that day, and it has always been with me. What happened was, by just being willing to die but keeping my heart open, I surrendered attachment to outcome. That’s the quote at the top of this blog. To live with hope but surrender attachment to the outcome we think we want. I did that, and it created FREEDOM for me. It released so much healing energy in me it really contributed to my long term recovery and subsequent health.

The truth is, when we get ill, or even when we don’t get ill, we don’t know whether we will live longer or shorter time, or whether we will recover or not. But we can fix our broken hearts, our resentments and grievances, and we can do that now, and now and now. 

Hope, in this context, is a beautiful energy, a powerful energy, and thus a healing one.

If anyone tries to steal your hope away and can’t replace it with something better, turn away and run. Don’t believe them. While you are alive there is some hope.
When its chronic illness and not acute, there is hope.
When you, or they, don’t really know what it is, there is hope.
Act on that hope without fixed attachment to how it should look, and bring all your vibrant intelligence, wisdom and power to take whatever action ‘feels’ right.

Choose ‘hope without attachment,’ over ‘resignation without any power.’

Thanks for reading!

References:
http://joannagarritano.com/impermanence-hope-and-healing/#comment-4330

 

Dig Deep on the Mysterious Path of Healing

If you have chosen the path of natural healing, for whatever reason, and you have found yourself stumbling in the dark, getting lost, going up blind alleys, being scared, or being disappointed, thinking you have found an answer only to be foiled, I have some news for that will challenge you and support you.

That is how it is, both in healing the body AND in transformation. 

Welcome to the mysterious world, the real world, the natural world. I know its frustrating and confusing and I know most of us want our answers to be straightforward and logical, because thats the world we have grown up in, but you are entering a different world now, and it doesn’t work the same.

Science, society, doctors, the whole shebang, would have us all believe its all scientific and even superficial. We so desperately want life to be straightforward. But here is the thing.

The basic model upon which all this thinking is based, IS A FLAWED WORLD VIEW. Yup. It is, sadly, a world view that has divorced itself from the natural movement of life, from nature itself. And I am delighted and sorry to tell them (and you) that the human being is still NATURAL. whether we like it or not. 

We have been heavily socialized, and industrialized and modernized, for only the last 100-200 years. For the previous thousands, even millions, of years, we have had to adapt to nature. Add to that truth the fact that we are highly complex beings who have emotions, hormones that relate to emotions, immune systems that relate to our thoughts and feelings, and nervous systems that are super conductor highways of vast intelligence, AND we have a profound spiritual side that connects us to the divine, and you have a seriously deep and complex person!

So cut yourself some slack and start digging. Dig deep, deep, deep. Dig into the roots of who you are, where you come from, what you have inherited and your entire belief system. Find out where you turned away from love because of fear, when you were young, and heal that wound. Search for all your old grievances and vengeance and commit yourself to releasing yourself from the prison. You wont heal or transform until you let go and really love yourself fully.

You have to dig to heal. When the tree is suffering, you can try and fix the branches, the leaves, or even the trunk, but you probably wont see much difference. But if you attend to the roots and get them nourished and flowing, pretty soon the leaves, the trunk, and the branches are going to grow strong and healthy. Whats the difference between us and the tree?

Nothing, except our beliefs systems. It is our belief systems that stand in our way. Don’t be a victim of a belief system that doesn’t serve you. Find one that serves you, or better still, go so deep into consciousness that you transcend belief systems altogether, and then you are free to play and dance and feel love and joy.

The one who has transcended his own belief system is free, and at peace with himself and the world.

Check out this HEALING HASHIMOTOS SUMMIT COMING UP IN NOVEMBER

Auto Immune 101…WHY are you sick, not what disease do you have?

I am going to lay it out very clearly for anyone who has symptoms that indicate something is going on inside them that is not right.
diagnosis_post2If you, or anyone else, has had the diagnosis of the dreaded ‘auto immune disease,’ please read this simple blog. I am writing it to simplify what sounds very mysterious.
We are rendered powerless by this very phrase ‘auto immune disease.’ I know I was many years ago. And not just because I had no idea what it actually meant but also because the doctors seemed mystified and ineffective at actually treating it.

THE TRUTH IS THEY DON’T ACTUALLY TREAT IT.

THEY SUPPRESS AND HIDE IT.

Now I am not a doctor so cannot argue on the level of ‘doctor speak’ so I will have to keep this basic and human. If your immune system is overactive and attacking itself, it is doing it for a reason. That is just basic common sense. Everything in life, everything, happens for a reason. It is the law of cause and effect. Things don’t happen without a cause, there cannot be just effect, it is impossible.

So if your immune system was ok at some point earlier in your life, and now is reacting in what seems to be an attacking way, something has provoked it. Something has caused, and is causing, your immune system to overdo it.

Any intelligent researcher, investigator or detective would ask the million dollar question, ‘What is causing it?’

Without knowing what is actually causing it, how can you really treat it effectively. If you have an infestation of termites and you just stand there killing the termites one at a time hoping the infestation will stop it’s never going to work. You need to find the termite nest. You need to get to the source and deal with the problem.

autoimmuneIt is basic Auto Immune 101. Search for the cause. Treat the cause. Symptoms disappear.

But the medical system with all it’s genius, science, sophistication and complexity cannot and does not do this.
Now, sometimes action has to be taken urgently because someone is in danger due to the ravaging effects of their symptoms. If the forest fire is tearing through the town it has to be stopped in its tracks. And medically speaking sometimes that might involve immunosuppressants and steroids, or strong herbs and so on. But these treatments are not the long term solution. They cannot be because they are not resolving the core issue of what is causing the fire to start!

Always we come back to the same point. Buy time if you must with medication and intervention (I personally didn’t, I just hung on in there while the acute phase was happening, and committed to detoxification) but for heavens sake get wise and find the cause of your issue.

INFLAMMATION AND GUT DYSBIOSIS.

OK I have just saved you days, weeks or months of research.

Yes, these two things are probably the two causal factors in your auto immune condition. Your job is to explore deeper and answer the questions, ‘What is causing the chronic inflammation and gut dysbiosis and how do I treat it effectively and as naturally as possible?

It could be a number of things, from virus to pathogens, toxins, environmental poisons, mould, trigger foods, vaccines etc etc. All these things, and more, can cause can be the precursor to a chronic inflammatory response in the body.

intestineAnd since the seat of the immune system is held in the delicate balance and harmony and integrity of the gut, it is clearly obvious that integrity, balance of bacteria and microbes, restoration of gut wall, elimination of candida, parasites etc must happen for the immune system to ‘calm down.’

These two areas alone, tested for, researched, and acted upon with intention and purpose, may well have such a profound effect on your ‘symptoms and dis-ease’ that it disappears, and relatively quickly. Of course it depends how deeply embedded it is in the body and how much destruction has already happened.

It also depends on your mental and emotional state and stress levels.
What I am offering you here is a starting point above and beyond what your doctor might be offering you. Inflammation is excellent when it is acute and disastrous when it is chronic. Remember that one truth and it will carry you a long way. Gut dysbiosis is absolutely definitely totally going to have to be dealt with if you are sick, or just feeling crap, or have low energy, headaches, allergies, or if you have taken medication, particularly antibiotics. 

It may be frustrating, and sometimes my words will echo as too simplistic, but I promise you there is a way through. It will take some time to reveal why it is happening but once found you then have your starting point for the adventure of your lifetime, the healing path.
And with great persistence and dedication, with help from professionals who understand what I am saying, health and wellbeing should rise, and may be better than ever. It is never guaranteed in this life, but what is there to lose!

But your doctor will not tell you any of this.

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References:
http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2009/09/08/what-you-need-to-know-about-inflammation.aspx

http://drhyman.com/blog/2010/07/30/how-to-stop-attacking-yourself-9-steps-to-heal-autoimmune-disease/

http://bodyecology.com/articles/inflammation_cause_of_disease_how_to_prevent.php

 

Strangely Coincidental Spontaneous Remission – Or Actual Healing?

In recent years I have dropped much of the anger at doctors I used to carry. It wasn’t healthy and there was probably a lot of projection involved. I also started to see deeper into the whole medical, science based paradigm, saw its huge benefits to mankind, and also saw how we are all trapped by something. So I became more understanding of the position doctors are in and how they are dictated to by the system that educated and trained them. I saw the bigger picture and stopped focusing so much on individuals. 
It is the system that is the problem, not the individuals.

BUT. There is something that gets my goat, as the saying goes. And that is arrogance and dismissiveness. I don’t like it in any walk of life, on Facebook, in the bar, in the bank, politics or anywhere. But when it is in the area of health it stirs me up and brings out the radical feisty rebel in me, and I have tendency to rise up and speak my mind.

I have just been reminded of this after reading an article by Dr Mark Hyman about healing auto immune conditions.
He talked of being in a group discussion with a conventional doctor, a rheumatologist, and one of his patients who was cured of a complex autoimmune disease by addressing the causes.

What he said was this, and I quote, ‘When my patient described how he cured his autoimmune disease by finding and eliminating the causes of inflammation in his diet and environment, it was dismissed as a “spontaneous remission.” In the face of a paradigm-shattering medical case, these doctors were hardly curious and quickly dismissive, describing what was shared as anecdotal.’
http://drhyman.com/blog/2010/07/30/how-to-stop-attacking-yourself-9-steps-to-heal-autoimmune-disease/

That makes me pretty mad I have to say, for many reasons. One of them is because they are talking about me! If you read yesterday’s blog, and I urge you to do so, you will read that I talk about healing my IBD completely.
https://acidtoalkalineliving.wordpress.com/2016/07/27/where-is-my-colitis-now-gone-no-symptoms-at-all/

So what I am reading is these ‘professionals’ dismiss my healing as ‘spontaneous remission,’ and any proof as anecdotal.
The remark that Dr Hyman makes that sends my blood pressure rocketing (only joking, I am too caring for my health to let that happen!)is this ‘these doctors were hardly curious and quickly dismissive.’

I have experienced this, as you may well have, and it is infuriating and offensive. It is the height of arrogance, and arrogance is the height of ignorance, and needs to be held to account.

article-1099566-0285039E000005DC-878_468x327When they don’t want to know it is maddening.

The only way to deal with this is to
a. meet it head on and face the doctor with his, or her, own arrogance, with your indignation and contempt.
b. Then find another doctor.

They are not all like this, I am glad to say. When I have had this kind of attitude I simple cannot stay with the doctor long.

Arrogance is an unpleasant syndrome unworthy of doctors. They need to know there is a world outside their paradigm, and it actually heals people. Western medicine is the new kid on the block, Chinese and Ayurvedic medicine have been around for at least 4000 years! 

And to actually use the term ‘spontaneous remission,’ is very disarming. It clearly suggests that nothing the patient has done, or not done, all the lifestyle changes they have made, have in no way contributed to this ‘remission,’ because it was just ‘spontaneous.’  It happened by itself for totally unknown reasons. It didn’t happen before though, it happened at EXACTLY THE SAME TIME as the patient made serious lifestyle changes and pursued healing the root cause of they dis-ease.’
Maybe the term should be ‘strangely coincidental spontaneous remission.’

Sometimes science is an ass. Without nature, without humanity, without consideration of the mystery of life, science is a dry box, defensive and arrogant. And even though, as I say again, it is incredible at what it does, there is no denying that, healing chronic disease (and I don’t mean suppressing symptoms) is not something it is good at.

And it will be left behind as a healing modality, unless it climbs down from its pedestal and becomes considerate and compassionate and available.

We could have the best of all worlds if the systems worked together. Divided is old paradigm. Collaboration is the new way. And that collaboration will have to involve a healthy respect for others.

And what it means with regard to your health is that you step up and take responsibility for your health, you speak your truth and only work with health practitioners who respect your choices, decisions and your healing. The system will change when we demand it changes.

My rant is over.

Thanks for reading!