Worrying about things that don’t happen – is catastrophic for the body

I just wrote this post on Facebook and it was my most popular! Is everyone suffering from this?

Worrying about things that don’t happen is one of the chief causes of adrenal stress, immune compromise and nervous system meltdown.
It is not only a spiritual issue. It is a mental and emotional issue, and very much a physical one.
There you have it, a truly holistic experience!
I know this syndrome intimately as I have been very vulnerable to it most of my life and have now largely ‘tamed’ it. It comes with a ‘vata’ disposition, according to Ayurveda. (The vata dosa, or body type, is prone to anxiety and fear)

Worrying about things that don’t happen is a fixation that must be met with openness and willingness to face the fear. We feed it the fuel it wants by turning away from it or being overly reactive to it. We lose our discernment and become hyper anxious.

That hyper anxiety hits the body hard, and is ultimately useless and destructive.

I recently returned from a trip to the east coast of USA. We accidentally got my name wrong on the flight booking, and that caused me considerable anxiety. I imagined they wouldn’t let me on the flight. I actually became quite stressed about the whole thing. Add to that I thought our luggage was over weight, and we didn’t have enough time to get everything done and I was all over the place!

Guess what? It was a big lesson.
a. They didn’t care about the name and changed it in a moment.
b. The luggage was fine.
c. We had loads of time and were still at the airport early.
d. I stressed over absolutely nothing.

Luckily I have learned not to take out this anxiety on anyone else, particularly loved ones. I keep it to myself as much as possible.

But the point I’m making is I worried about things that didn’t happen. And it began to screw around with my body.
Acute anxiety or chronic anxiety, it doesn’t matter, it still degrades the body integrity and must be met with softness and love.

The effect of this unnecessary worry on the body can be catastrophic. From adrenal fatigue to ramped up immune system, to liver tightness, high cortisol levels, risk of heart attack, rashes, and serious digestive problems, this is not some minor issue. Even cancer may be fueled by major worry.

It is a chronic and societal problem that must be faced individually and collectively. 

What can you do?

You can do so much to reduce this heavyweight problem.

All endeavors will help. Here are some ideas that I use.

Meditation. Spending time in nature. Exercise. Relaxation.Visualization. 
Spiritual inquiry. Healing old wounds and traumas. Understanding one’s mind and belief systems.
Magnesium. Detoxification. Nourishment with healthy and organic vegetables and salads.
Decreasing acidic and stimulating foods and drinks. NO COCA COLA!
Love.

Let me know what you think, or whether you worry about things that don’t happen and what strategies you employ, if any, to help reduce it’s damaging effects.

And thanks for reading!

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Spring Fever

What are you doing today to keep the body fluid and light?
Exercise?
Are you hydrating with good quality water? I am so surprised as I go around visiting people how many people think they are drinking good water but they are not, nor are they drinking enough.
Are you getting greens?
Are you getting detoxifying berries?
Are you eating enough salads?

Spring is here for some people and around the corner for others. That means a shift of diet may be in order and the fatty, heavy foods that kept us warm and fed like bears in the winter now need to be detoxed and the liver must be cleaned out. Hence astringent and cleansing foods from the ground.
Dandelions could be your best friend.

See below for a useful video.

You must help your body in its natural processes by supporting its hydration and elimination. Remember, if your lymphatic system is not nourished AND eliminating, chronic disease may well be around the corner waiting for you.

Once the body is attended to with as much clarity and love and nourishment as possible, surely then we need to turn our attention to the mind and emotions?
WHY?
Because it is often the mind and emotions that prevent the body from flowing its energy the way it is designed to do.

Fear creates tension in matter – Your body.

Old wounds and traumas block the flow and freedom of energy, creating inflammation and stress – In Your body.

Grievances, hate, resentment, all carry massive electrical charges that disrupt the healthy patterns we are designed for – In Your body.

Attending to these matters, finding ways to release the past and find freedom and self loving acceptance, have a surprising and powerful effect on bodily systems, from the nervous system to the lymphatic system, to the more obvious immune system.

It is worth noting that most people who have ‘healed’ major chronic disease will attribute a large amount of the healing to this area of emotions, mind, and spirit.

That is exactly what I found.

Here is a very useful video from John Douillard about how to adjust your diet for Spring.

Living in Harmony

Living harmoniously requires great dedication at first, because modern life is lived so un-harmoniously. Imbalance is one of the primary causes of the modern malady we call chronic illness, but also that of addiction, depression and relational dysfunction.

To live harmoniously means to drop that which stands in the way of what is balanced and true.
It is not a doing, not a diet, or a regime, not an exercise program, or a search for enlightenment.

It is an undoing as much as anything, a resolution of what is false, toxic and impure.
It is a detoxification of body, mind and spirit.
It is an addressing of what is causing a fight or flight response.
It is the deepest inquiry within into truth and faslehood. And of course that involves the foods we put into our mouths. But it is also how we digest the world mentally or spiritually and emotionally.

To me this is the greatest endeavor.
This is the living of the Tao, living in balance and harmony. When that happens natural wisdom and clarity arises.

Love happens by itself because it is our natural state.

Awakening is just there, not something that is found but simply revealed, because it is our natural state.

What is wrong is not that we are not enlightened but that we are living far out of alignment with our inner nature and our outer environment.

It is not hard to have an enlightenment or awakening experience. What is hard, and where the endeavor must be great, is to really live this awakening in everyday life, in the workplace, in the kitchen, in the family and in the shops.

This rebalancing is the point of the Tao, Ayurveda, and Yoga. But it gets misunderstood easily. It also includes the search for enlightenment. Yet so many people experience this enlightenment as a purely mental experience and miss the living of it as a harmonious reality. That is a shame because it prevents it coming into the body, into relationships and into the world.

I am one whose spirituality and wellbeing are part of the same thing, because they ARE the same thing.

 

Is Chronic Disease the Price we Pay for Modern Life?

I think we have a problem. A big problem facing the whole of society, no matter which country we are in (unless its a very natural and simple one far away from modern life)

That problem is that we are in danger of accepting chronic illness, and particularly auto immune related illness, AS THE NORM. We are in danger of accepting that auto immunity is a natural response to a toxic environment, and we are attempting to pacify the body, hide the symptoms and label the disease but we are not, en masse, or from the highest level of politics, doing anything about it from the environmental perspective.

I believe we actually think that chronic disease is the price we pay for modern urban living.

AND IT MAY BE TRUE.

When we draw back and look at this issue from a collective, national and global standpoint we see some terrifying patterns. Obviously from the personal position we don’t care about global patterns or what it’s even caused by, because we are so preoccupied and taken up with our own journey of healing or intervention. But if the very root of our illness is our constant reactivity to aspects of our environment that we can never escape then we have a problem. We will never heal enough to feel great or truly healthy, but we will simply carry around low grade or high grade symptoms and fend off acute illness for as long as possible until we finally succumb.

If the very root of our illness is our constant reactivity to aspects of our environment that we can never escape then we have a problem.

So many people are sick. So many people are chronically sick, acutely sick, low grade sick, only just able to function sick.
Chronic disease is epidemic, no one doubts that. Since the 20th Century burst open, with its wars and its extraordinary industrialization, its chemicals and factories and intense farming, chronic disease has been growing. But since the 1990’s and the turn of this Century things have escalated, and as far as I see, hear and experience as I travel around, they don’t look like stopping. It is out of control. If it was murder, terrorism or car crashes we would be freaking out. But because it is chronic illness we don’t bat an eyelid.

Wow!

My feeling is thus: We should NEVER accept chronic illness as normal. Just because its the appropriate response of the immune system and nervous system to a toxic and highly stressful, chemical laden, environment, that in itself is no reason to accept it as normal. We have to do everything and anything, personally and collectively, environmentally and politically, to deal with the environmental triggers, to reduce chemical toxicity, to clean up air, water and city, to actually study wifi and discuss the dangers.

Here is what we can do. GET AS HEALTHY AS POSSIBLE, without being tight or rigid about it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not talking about diets or losing weight (I DO mean finding your natural weight), I am talking about doing everything in your power to detox your lymphatic system, clear up your gut health, reduce stress, improve sleep, hydration and vegetable intake. Choose organic and non GMO ALWAYS! Exercise the body, sweat and breathe. Release emotional stuckness, rigid thoughts and beliefs and RELAX! Get out in the sun, dance and walk in nature. 

Remove toxic products as much as possible from your life, your house, bathroom and car. They are everywhere. Research what is natural and buy it. Prioritize health above almost everything else, except maybe your kids. If you have kids, prioritize THEIR health! 

Did I say sort out your gut? Detox your brain, your gut, your liver, heal your adrenals and kidneys. Research the dangers of wifi and start to do what you can to protect yourself from the danger. At least don’t sleep with your phone.

All of this you could do, sick or not. And I promise you it will help your body defense system deal with today’s toxic load. You will be the healthiest person in the hospital. And even though you may still be diagnosed with some chronic condition you won’t even feel it because you will be strong and healthy. A strange idea I know but it seems to be the times we live in.

Let me know what you think.

Reactivity in Auto Immune Conditions and Inflammation

Please do not take this as scientific proof. If you are looking for modern science you probably wont find it here. This blog and website is only about ideas that might be possible.

As I always say in my blogs and posts, find out for yourself what is true. Believe nothing unless you truly believe it deeply inside. And if you don’t know, be ok with not knowing and make your inquiry into healthy living and illness come from an unknown perspective.

Basically, develop discernment and inner wisdom, it will serve you for life and help others who also don’t know.

My conversations are speculative and holistic. I’m trying to connect dots that medical science doesn’t want to, or can’t, or won’t, connect. Mainly that means exploring the connection between matter and thought, or body and mind you might say.

I want to look at patterns, beliefs, language, energy fields, that sort of thing. I truly believe we only have a small bit of the puzzle of being human. Most of the rest of the puzzle will not be found in science or conventional medicine.

But the puzzle and the mystery is where the exciting stuff is. That’s where I like to dig around. I am an investigator and explorer.

So I have been contemplating the nature of auto immune conditions, described by conventional medicine as ‘self attacking self,’ and decided to talk a little about how our emotional mental ‘reactivity’ to life, thought and situations may play a very big part in perpetuating the suffering of self attack.

The key here is to understand why reactivity, particularly over-reactivity, is happening on the mental, emotional level, and to attempt to ease it down and relax it. In my world awareness and understanding is fundamental in the healing.

Reactivity tends to come from fear. That fear can be fear of danger, fear of lack of safety, threat to life, violence or extreme vulnerability. Fear is an existential issue we all have somewhere deep within. People with trauma, childhood wounds, acute sensitivity (sometimes from birth trauma) and unstable childhoods are prone to this fear more than most. This fear is visceral, it’s not simply emotional or mental. It becomes physical, make no mistake. And that physicality we now know (through science and biology) can affect our gut microbiome, digestive process, gut permeability, ‘fight or flight’ mechanism, and adrenal glands, as well as the whole body. Every physical effect I have just stated impacts the immune system.

The deeper trouble with this is that it sets up a chronic pattern that may lock us in for life. If these things are happening in childhood and youth we learn them as survival mechanisms and repeat them every time something real OR IMAGINED reminds us of the old trauma. It doesn’t have to be a real threat, it can just be the thought of it or something similar. In fact much of this reactivity will happen IN ANTICIPATION of trouble THAT ACTUALLY DOESN’T HAPPEN.

This has been one of my ongoing life stories revealed to me over the years through various body work therapies, deep inner exploration and more recently chiropractic testing. I developed a secret inner part of me that was always alert to danger, always on the look out and hyper vigilant, whether I was asleep or not. The consequences of this are serious and disturbing, both physically and mentally. Physically it means being always in reactivity mode and high alert, and never able to get into deep restful delta sleep where healing and renewal comes from.

It means immune system and nervous system are on constant alert to danger. It began in my early teens during my parents slide into acrimonious divorce and my slide into ‘out of control’ drug taking chaos. It has lasted a lifetime (the effect not the drugs!), and been mostly hidden from view but had massive repercussions on my relationships, purpose in life and most important on my physical health. Specifically on my immune health, gut health, and now thyroid health. It also resulted in addiction problems.

So what does this say?

Well I actually see this reactivity, this over active ‘fight or flight’ mechanism, at play in many people I work with, and almost always with those who experience some form of auto immunity. And it can disguise itself in many ways. Being over critical of self or others is one way, being self hating (remember the ‘self attacking self’ phrase at the beginning of this article?), being extremely resentful, being highly anxious, fearful, angry or depressed are all permutations of the same thing, reactivity.

This blog piece is just the beginning of a much bigger conversation about mind and body and trauma, and about how the immune system gets over activated when we are young.

If we accept that reactivity might be an issue both physically and emotionally it gives us knowledge and insight, and puts us in a greater position to be able to take action.

What action? I am going to discuss this next time.

I would love to hear from you what you think, as I really don’t have all the answers, but thousands of questions that I love exploring.

And the next piece I think will be how to turn our unhealthy reactivity to a healthy and calm responsiveness so we can maintain calm in our inner world.

Thank you so much for reading, and please please comment and add something to the conversation. And share this is you feel moved to.

Auto Immune Causes – The Cat and Mouse Game – A Personal Tale

Some of you may know over the years I have been through many diagnoses ranging from the sublime to the ridiculous, but have suspected Thyroid problems for a while now. Hashimotos is an auto immune experience, and I have been through gut related auto immune in the form of colitis, so I carry a tendency and possibly a lingering causal issue.

I now have some definitive test results that reveal I am producing antibodies which means there is a problem with the thyroid and what might be called ‘an auto immune’ condition.

I now have something to work on. But honestly this area is a minefield of information and red herrings, false flags and holistic mystery.

Getting tested is important, but tests are so damn expensive, particularly when there are a myriad of tests.

Finding a professional, either a decent doctor or a functional doctor or a knowledgeable naturopath is very expensive and out of my range, so i’m in the thick of it with trying to unravel it for myself as much as possible.

Luckily I am healthy, or at least healthy enough to mitigate some of the symptoms and effects.

But thats not enough when there is attrition of the gland and body going on. I have to dig even deeper and find some causal factor.

Could be Epstein Barr virus.
Could be heavy metal.
Could be electro smog.
Could be the years of toxic drug overload.
Could be a genetic component.
Could be years of stress I carried.
Could be low testosterone.

You see the problem?

It is something of an anomaly to have this..I am actually super healthy on so many levels, and all indications are it just shouldn’t be so. So the question that must always be asked and pursued is WHY?

What is causing this reactivity in the cellular body? Over the years as I have healed my gut the inflammation markers have come down and down until now there is no sign of inflammation.

That doesn’t necessarily mean there is one. But something is in the system, or some imbalance in the system, that is creating this disturbance. It might be low grade infection (ala ‘Medical Medium’ suggestion that Epstein Barr virus is more at play in Hashimotos and auto immunity than we imagine. It could simply be years of toxic assault, mercury (now gone) and stress (which I carried for many years) and of course electro smog and all its joys..

And of course Im now 59 so the body is hanging and getting older, systems getting weaker, testosterone going down, and so on and so forth.

So the investigation continues, meanwhile I truly believe that one can at least offset damage and harm by living as though one were vibrantly well, consciously choosing healthy foods and exercise and attending to the mind and emotion. xx

Thats where I’m at. I am almost excited to have found out something definite. It gives me a direction to move in.

Thanks for reading!

My recent results.

What Did I Do To Heal Ulcerative Colitis?

One thing I am always careful of when I talk to people about healing ‘disease’ is this. No two people are the same, there is no one magic bullet that heals all people of all diseases, and thus what worked for me may not work for someone else.

Once we really understand that we have a choice to take greater responsibility for our own predicament. It is not always easy being both the sufferer AND becoming the investigator and researcher. But that is what must happen. Of course we will always need experts and professionals to guide us, support us and test us, but part of the healing itself is for us to become actively involved in making sense of our situation and becoming our own healers. That process creates new energy within us that becomes part of the journey.

So with all that said let me share once again some insights into my own healing path and what it involved.

When I was diagnosed with Inflammatory Bowel Disease (in particular Ulcerative Colitis) I had no idea what it was or what to do. But my first instinct was to investigate more rather than just accept the medication and prognosis the consultants and doctors offered me. I figured (intuitively) that my body was in meltdown with an overload of toxicity so to just load it up with more pharmaceuticals was heading in the wrong direction.

The professionals thought I was irresponsible and just plain wrong. I walked out of the hospital. I believe I was right, and the proof is that I never took any medication from that day to this, and those same professionals were emphatic that I would be on meds for the rest of my life. It just goes to show some of what is possible. They are not always right by any stretch of the imagination.

So that was important for me. I didn’t load my body any more than it was already loaded.

And then I went full-on detoxification. I could no longer eat properly anyway, suffering at times 20 bowel movements a day, losing a lot of blood and becoming increasingly weaker and more anaemic day by day. I went to India for two more detoxification panchakarmas, and I shifted slowly to a raw food diet. Raw food is inherently cleansing, but also pretty rough on the colon and very cooling, so there was a positive effect but also a negative effect and pretty soon I think my immune system was all but shut down, leaving me vulnerable to other issues like Raynaud’s disease, possible scleroderma and thyroid problems.

I spent two years 90% housebound and lost in confusion, fear, anger and physical suffering. It was tough. But I worked and worked on myself. I left no stone unturned, and even when I gave up I didn’t really give up. I hit rock bottom but somehow hung on in there and trusted that something deep was happening. I learned that healing is not a linear movement, it works in a spiral. And that means sometimes we feel worse when we are getting better, and at times we must revisit old traumas and scary places in order to assimilate them and/or let them go.

I learned that healing is PROFOUND. The healing call, if and when it calls, is not some little voice that just wants everything alright again. It is bigger, much bigger than that. The healing voice is shouting at us to change everything, to change fundamentally. It is huge. It wants TRANSFORMATION.

It took everything for me.

But here is the most extraordinary thing that changed for me, and for which I am still grateful and still amazed.

I saw and healed the dysfunctional relationship between my mind and my body. I came to understand what part in my illness, and wellness, in fact my whole life, my mind played. It was a HUGE revelation and one which still reveals itself over and over again.

I don’t think we have yet fully grasped the power of mind to influence body, both negatively and positively. I am so glad I worked on it, and I always advise those who are in any way suffering, to inquire for themselves what is going on.

I like to think of it like this. There is a mutual relationship going on between mind and body. Mind affects body AND body affects mind. It is a bio energetic feedback loop. And it can get very stuck in one mode of operation, that of negativity. It doesn’t matter where it started, in the body or in the mind, who cares! What matters is intervention in the endless loop. Intervene as deep as possible on the body level and things will slowly change on the mental level, which will then affect the body level. Intervene on the mental level and it will slowly have an impact on the body level.

But intervene on BOTH the body level AND the mental level and transformation of the whole organism may well happen.

It was tough for me. It lasted at least ten years and it took me to every part of myself. It was slow. It was scary. Like all huge journeys it challenged me, called me to step up to the plate, but eventually things started to change.

Clean up the body. Clean up the mind.

As you can read, I’m not talking about the details of what I did to heal. I haven’t mentioned any foods, herbs, protocols, supplements, exercises, meditations or anything. That is the challenge we all face.

The people who I have met who have healed have all got one thing in common. They have activated their inner power, their inner guidance system. They have taken massive action to heal. Of course it doesn’t always lead to healing in the way we understand it. Some people heal their hearts but lose their bodies. There is no rule that says if we do this action we will get this return. Life is mysterious and we really have no idea what is happening. All we can do is love ourselves and the world as much as possible, heal our wounds, our bodies and our minds and leave the rest to God.

That is what I did.

If you are on this journey I apologize for not offering you anything that feels definite but I always hope this gives you cause for optimism and encouragement. The healing journey was the greatest experience of my life. It helped me, no it forced me, to confront myself, let go of old grievances, heal my wounded heart and mind, change addictive patterns and come into the full bloom of my being. I have become very grateful to what happened, and even though it was not something I would have chosen, by embracing the journey and the experience I allowed it to heal through the power of divine intelligence.

Human beings are extraordinary and our capacity far outreaches our current knowledge or belief systems. Stretch your beliefs, stretch your imagination, stretch your actions and sure as heck something will happen.

Four powerful steps I took.

  1. I supported my body in the healing journey. I didn’t suppress symptoms. I navigated them.
  2. I took massive action to learn about my experience and apply my learning.
  3. I healed my toxic thoughts and beliefs through meditations, visualization, therapists and healers.
  4. I developed a deeper trust and resolve and power.
  5. I NEVER gave up.

With great love Kavi