The Body Is Always Pointing To Love

I have this statement on my website:

The Body Is Always Pointing To Love

What does it mean and isn’t it a bit woohoo and weird?
And how can the body and love be connected?
And what happens if the body gets sick and dies?

Good questions!

What I am suggesting is that the body is a reflection of consciousness and personality. It stores all the stories we have had, all the dramas of our life, and all the things we could not process during our childhood, youth or adulthood.

And that includes all the times we moved away from love’s innocence because we were afraid.

Your body is the reason you are here in this world. If you didn’t have a body you wouldn’t be here. As consciousness you owe a lot to the body you have. It is probably the greatest miracle of high tech, biological, electrical engineering we could imagine. It is extraordinary in the extreme, but to reduce it to its chemical or biological, or even electrical components is something of an insult, because it is so much more than that.

The Indians first came up with the awareness of inner energy vortices inside the body that vibrate at different frequencies and have different purposes. They called them chakras. Chinese medicine has studied and used the inner energy system of the body for its acupuncture work for centuries, and so its not new information to be aware that the body has deep intelligence that we don’t really fully understand.

BUT…you are not the body. Well, in truth, you ARE the body and your are NOT the body. Ultimately you are consciousness. But while you are here in form you are intimately connected to your body. 

And therein lies the word intimately. You as consciousness are intimately connected to your own body. But the body itself will perish and die. It will develop issues, get old, wear out. It will carry scars and wounds and let you down, and finally dissolve into the dust from which it came. Your body teaches you about who you really are. 

And since who you really are is consciousness, which is unconditional love, it is fair to say that the body is always pointing you to love.

I would actually go one step further and say that life itself as we experience it, all experience and everything that manifests, is pointing us to love, the love that is our unconditional nature.

But we miss that because we are so full of our stories and our hurts and wounds and fears and resentments and grievances. We miss the best bit of being human. And what is that best bit?

The best bit is forgetting we are love itself and getting lost in the dream and the drama, and then waking up again and finding our way home and remembering our true nature. 

That is the best bit. It’s worth all the effort of being lost.

But finding your way home to this exalted, yet utterly natural, state, can be tricky. It takes persistence, great humility, and warrior-like guts. And sometimes a guide to point the right direction.

I like to think I am one of those guides, a pointer in that direction.

My website: www.kavijezziehockaday.com

Trust The Body Intelligence

This last year I have learned a great deal about body health and healing. One of the greatest things I have learned is this valuable truth. 

The body is designed to heal. If you support it, and don’t interfere with it, gradually the body will heal. You must find those elements that support it, and bring your mind and emotions into line with that support.

The way we live in our fast paced, instant answers kind of world, is anathema to this notion of trust, patience and time.

It is my view that far too often we jump into taking drastic and extreme action too quickly and story our chances of organic healing. Let me give you two examples:

My wife developed injury to her wrist knuckle bone (the bit that sticks out) over a year ago. It happened because of putting down some luggage too abruptly. It was very difficult to diagnose and very difficult to deal with. An MRI suggested chipped bone, and eventually all the medical system could offer was corrective surgery, anti inflammatory drugs etc. She is not the type of person to take drugs so she went to see our Ayurvedic doctors in the UK. They suggested inflammation around the joint and prescribed herbs and a lot of patience. She has had it worked on by a good chiropractor, take Chinese herbs, and we have done a lot of massage, and she has strengthened it through yoga practice.

It has taken over a year to slowly, very slowly, go down. And now it is almost fine.

That is patience, trust and supporting the body’s natural healing powers. If she had jumped into drastic action she may well have had instant relief, but she may never have received full healing. Knowing when to take action and when to support and trust the body is the key to health.

The second example is me. Some of you may know I developed a mysterious rash that spread across my whole body last year upon return from Costa Rica. It was alarming to say the least. From spots to welts, it seemed unstoppable and  ferocious. We had no idea of its cause, of course we had ideas, but no proof. The medical system, I a sorry to report, had no clue and could offer no real help but referral to another specialist (dermatology) and, of course, medication to help stop it. But that would have meant anti inflammatories, creams, and high dose antibiotics. But no one knew what it actually was, so it seemed wrong to just take the meds without knowing !

A year later and it has almost gone. It has taken deep trust, healthy practices, relaxation, some herbal creams, some supplementation and great deal of persistence.

But here is the point I am really making. If you jump too early to medication, surgery or unnatural intervention, it can cause big problems in the natural flow of the body energies. Body takes time and can not be rushed. We always want our healing to go faster than it is and become impatient and fearful when it doesn’t meet our expectations. And at those times we sometimes take action that not only interferes with healing, but actually PREVENTS it!

So my message today is to get deeply in touch with body intelligence, and to get deeply in touch with your inner wisdom, and to make that inner knowledge the main key to healing.

To know when to act and when to wait, that is wisdom.

Thanks for reading!

Holistic Inquiry – What Is It?

Holistic Inquiry – the Healing of Fragmentation

The process of healing, resolving or removing anything that prevents wholeness.

We are designed for Integration of all parts into the whole. We are a whole system. And yet we live in fragmented ways. Mind is fragmented from body, spirit is fragmented from our life, health is thought of as a purely physical issue and treated accordingly, and emotions are problems that need to be buried.

But inquiry into the truth of us reveals that we are born to be ‘bigger than the sum of our parts.’ When we are integrated, meaning when our apparently separate parts are working harmoniously and healthily, we become greater than we could imagine.

12376456_10153745034952856_8110593313318979093_nHolistic Inquiry is the looking within, into any and all areas of life, to see where the blocks are to this wholeness, and to understanding how everything connects to everything else, and to seeing what, if any, action must be taken to bring integration.

Understanding the holistic nature of your life, specifically how everything you do, think, feel, say, eat and believe affects the entirety of your life, far from confusing you more, actually brings greater clarity, self knowledge and power to you. It often brings an ‘Ah Ha!’ moment.

You might suddenly realise why you have always felt a certain way.
You may understand the flow of your life and why you have ended up in the place you are in.
You may arrive at great compassion and love for yourself.
You might even fall in love with yourself once again.
You will almost definitely increase your self awareness and wisdom.

And that in itself will give you the energy you need to take appropriate action.

The areas of focus:

  • Exploration of emotions.
  • Where love was denied or turned away from in childhood.
  • How trauma lives in the body.
  • Non Duality, the realisation of oneness.
  • The movement of one’s life, understanding the pattern.
  • Lifestyle habits and the addictive mechanism.
  • The power of belief to influence the body, positively and negatively.
  • How we really work, and what drives us. A look under the hood.

After years attending spiritual meetings, from satsangs to meditation camps, I came to see that there has almost always been something missing from many teachings. They are not integrated and so remain as disembodied beliefs. They are true, but not lived in the body and thus not in the life. They are not fully integrated.
The body must be included in our inquiry and our care, not just as a physical machine, but as an expression of beliefs, emotions and consciousness.’

Spiritual truths have to become grounded in body and life. Our foundations must be solid for the temple to be built to withstand the vicissitudes of life.
Look at the ancient health systems of Ayurveda (Indian) and Chinese medicine. The are both holistic systems that include mind, body and spirit. They are essentially integrative holistic systems. And they treat people from that perspective.

0bc4fc1e64b4d5863aa12349a1dc1a95A personal story. During my first Indian Panchakarma treatment in 2005 in the midst of turmoil and feeling like death, I experienced a groundedness and wellbeing that shocked me to the core. I was told that, for the first time in years and years, my doshas (energy systems in the body) were balanced, and that this groundedness was the real me, the natural me. It shocked me and made me a servant of holistic wellbeing for life.

You see not many people are truly themselves. When you are fragmented you may well not feel right, but you don’t know what whole feels like, so you have nothing to aim for. Feeling whole is feeling naturally yourself, without effort and without tension. The feeling is naturally spiritual, naturally emotionally and mentally balanced and clear seeing.

The side benefits to this natural way of being are gratitude, compassion, self love and love of others, increased energy, better and more positive relationships, a feeling of abundance, an increase in personal power, and a discovery of one’s true purpose in life.

Yes, it can be quite profound.

Remember this one thing. Everything is connected to everything else. When you pull on one piece it affects every other area. It is whole and integrated anyway, whether you know it or not. But waking up to this truth and living it as a reality changes everything about your life.

Trauma, conditioning and wounding, live in the body and become the pervading reality of our lives.
We build our lives around our traumas and make them our way of life. In other words we compensate for the traumas that have lodged themselves in our body/mind system. Those times we moved away from innocence, and from love, remain alive in the body, in our lives, until we consciously attend to them. Or they can stay alive below the level of conscious attention and fester for years. Often these ‘locked in’ traumas, places where energy is stuck and not flowing, can become the places where illness and dis-ease begin.

Holistic Inquiry is the process of releasing energy through awareness, dialogue and conscious investigation.

The Five Harmonies:

Body – Where the rubber hits the road.
Emotion – Must flow freely like the river to the Ocean.
Mind – Clear seeing and discerning.
Spirit – Knowing oneself as consciousness.
Environment – In harmony with one’s surroundings.

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The Holistic Map of Your Life and How to Read It.

THE HOLISTIC MAP OF YOUR LIFE.

Your body is the manifestation of your consciousness.
Its what you we’re given to journey through life with. It contains and holds everything that has happened to you since you arrived here. It carries the imprint of your parents, grandparents, great grand parents and so on and on back into the mystery of your past.
0bc4fc1e64b4d5863aa12349a1dc1a95It holds the secrets of life, encoded into its DNA. It is still utterly mysterious to us, but it is supremely intelligent and has capacities and potential to heal or create illness, far beyond our current understanding. Never doubt its capabilities.

It sends you messages you may not be hearing accurately.
It is in reciprocal relationship with your mind, emotions and spirit. Always always bear this in mind.

 

Your spirit is that purest, eternal and unchanging part of you you are born from, and return to when your body dies.
It is also who you really are while you are here in existence. It doesn’t change just because you we’re born.

Remembering your true nature as freedom and consciousness is the most profound healing that can happen, because it liberates you from attachment, need and fear of annihilation. Realising your true nature has a powerful impact on the physical body. It relaxes the nervous system and immune system. It resolves into love.

Love has the power to heal, even to transform dis-ease to ease in the body.

If you want to imagine it, think of your spirit as the highest aspect of your self, and your body as the lowest aspect of your self. Or your spirit as the lightest and the body as the densest.

And there are things that block the free flow of energy from the highest to the lowest.

They are called Emotions. Yes, thats right, emotions, (and I included thoughts and beliefs of the mind in this) can easily be the number one cause of imbalance, disharmony and dis-ease.

Spiritual energy has to flow into and through the physical body, and if it becomes impeded and blocked, its going to cause problems to the whole being, to the whole of you.

The emotional blocks, wounds, traumas, thoughts and beliefs, are usually things carried from the past that become stuck in the physical/emotional body until they are consciously released. Most people do not consciously release them ever, and so carry them for a lifetime.
The body has tremendous powers to cope with these traumas. It works with them and around them. UP TO A POINT. As you get older the body gets weaker, and the attrition gets deeper and more chronic. Thats when trouble sets in. It becomes a systemic breakdown of the whole of you.

Its when physicals illness sets in, depression happens, bitterness and discontent rise to the surface, and resignation easily happens.
Thats the unfortunate outcome we want to avoid.

And it can be rectified and healed.
It is never too late to change things. It is never too late to become harmonious again. In fact its our destiny to do so.

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It means you have to develop a strong desire to become wise.
It means you have to be prepared to face and let go of things you may have carried for years.
It might be time to let go of grievances you have had.
The way to start is to be willing.
Attending to the body is vital, and that means clearing up diet and movement.
It means detoxifying and nourishing.

But quickly you will find it also means clearing up the toxic emotions connected to your inner life. This can be done by simple awareness, certain useful techniques, breathing and conscious awareness.

This is the nature of Holistic Healing.  Each journey is unique, and has its own footprint. There are maps. First you need the willingness and then you need to take one step at a time on your unique path.

Thanks for reading. Get in touch with any questions.
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The Detox Project is Live, FREE and online

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I am happy to pass this information on…Detoxification has been the single most important element of my own journey with healing. I truly believe I would not have resolved my Inflammatory Bowel Disease unless I started with huge detoxification. 

And believe me, I had huge amounts of toxicity in my body from years of pharmaceutical and chemical grade drugs, drink and toxic diet.

The more information you have about detox the wiser your choice can be.

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Where Is My Colitis Now? GONE – No Symptoms At All

I’m writing this blog today for anyone who thinks they cannot heal chronic disease.
I’m writing this for those who have cancer, those who have inflammatory conditions, those with blood issues and all the chronic ‘hopeless’ conditions.

And I am writing this for the consultants and doctors who, over the years, dismissed my notion of healing my condition as ‘impossible’ and even stupid. Yes, I’m writing this in defiance and wrathfulness.

I am not angry anymore, but for years I actually was angry at them for giving me so little hope and so few options.

Now I see part of my mission on earth is to spread the news to ordinary people, to show them that there ARE possibilities, and there is hope, and how we should never give up and resign ourselves to what other people, even if they are so called ‘professionals, say.

If I had listened to some of those voices many years ago, if I had followed some of their professional advice and let myself be led like a horse to water, I can only imagine what state I would be in today, ten years later. It wouldn’t be good.

You see, when I was first diagnosed with inflammatory bowel disease in 2005 in a London hospital I was told in no uncertain terms that I would have it for life, I would probably be on medication for life, and that I may have to have surgery to remove some of the infected areas. That is a colonoscopy.

Colitis report 1Here is the report they sent to my doctor. Click to view in detail.

If you look at the report it suggests I should be started on a drug called Asacol.
It is an immunosuppressive, which is something I will never understand. I have just, for the first time, searched on Google for the possible side effects of this drug and I found crazy things!
Here is the link, have a quick look.
https://www.drugs.com/sfx/asacol-side-effects.html
For a start, some of the ‘side effects’ are actually exactly the same as the effects from the colitis itself! Like ulcerative colitis aggravated (up to 15%)

But when you are prescribed these drugs it is very very rare that you would be told about these side effects. They are terrifying! Worse than the disease itself.

And here is the thing. Chinese herbs and acupuncture, Ayurvedic herbs and treatments, herbal medicine, naturopathic remedies, NONE of them have any side effects. And they DON’T suppress the immune system. They will support and modulate the immune system, but there is a big difference between this and forcing the system to quell its activity. To me one is force the other is healing.
I have just found another great article about this:
http://restorativemedicine.org/journal/natural-support-for-autoimmune-and-inflammatory-disease/

Well that fateful day I was told of the possible future I faced is forever etched in my mind, for the single reason that I chose, as it says in the report, not to take their advise but to follow my own instincts and knowledge and pursue natural treatments. At that stage I had no idea what those natural treatments would be, but I already knew Ayurvedic (Indian) and Chinese herbs were very powerful and useful, so I imagined I would start there.

But that is not my point, that is for another blog. My point is always this, and I have said it before time and time again.

Despite what little hope I was offered that day, and during subsequent assessments and diagnoses, I never took any medication at all. NONE, ZERO, ZIP. And that was quite tough, because my symptoms got pretty serious at a couple of points.
In fact a recent discussion with my doctor about something else involved him asking me about my natural healing path and how I coped with the ‘acute phase’ of this dis-ease. ‘Good question,’ I thought and answered, because it meant he was taking me seriously. It is the acute phase that lands most people in hospital with very serious symptoms that demand urgent intervention. The answer was that I let it flow, and that meant sometimes 20 bowel movements a day and pouring mucus and blood (sorry for the squeamish among you!). Remember I wasn’t taking any meds, so I thought of it all as somehow the natural actions of a body in crisis.

Although it was mentally and emotionally very challenging, I tried hard to see that what was happening was the body taking the right action to try and eliminate toxins and pathogens and restore balance. The body was trying to detox and purify, but the effect was dramatic.

There is a big difference between seeing your own body from a compassionate, supportive and caring position, and seeing your body as having gone wrong and being angry, or fearful, or brutish with it. Your body hears and knows and responds to what you feel and say and think.

I know what I’m saying is hard and challenging and even with the best will in the world, sometimes intervention and hospital, medications and urgent treatment, are the only way. That is, as they say, the way it is.

I think what I am saying is to always look at your own mental attitude towards yourself and your body. Although I was freaked out by what was happening to me over the years it took me to heal, I never viewed my body as my enemy. I devised meditations and healing visualisations for myself to listen to every day. I explored my unconscious mind and emotions to the deepest level I knew, and left absolutely no stone unturned in my commitment to supporting the healing process, no matter what. I became a servant of my own healing.

Doctors don’t know about the healing journey. Most people don’t. We are all thinking in the same box most of the time. It is very limited. It is a mindset that works when it works, but when there is a breakdown, the mindset is sadly lacking in its ability to explain it or deal with it.
It is the same in mental health, psychological problems, addictions, and even societal problems.
We are caught in this mechanistic mindset that reads symptoms in a linear manner and attempts to rectify problems by medication, removal or incarceration.

Very rarely do we hear anything about healing, rehabilitation, forgiveness, compassion. Yet these are surely vital aspects of the human species?

I never took any medications, and it has now been over ten years. And guess what has happened? Well slowly slowly, and sometimes very slowly indeed, and sometimes forward and sometimes backwards, I have healed my wounded colon and reduced my inflammation, restored gut integrity, nurtured and nourished the physical needs of my body, dealt with emotions and mind, and now, for the last two years at least…

THERE HAVE BEEN NO SYMPTOMS OR SIGNS OF THIS ‘LIFE LONG DIS-EASE.’

I don’t think about it any more. Occasionally if I am suffering with something else, it can trigger some gut sensitivity, because I think I will always be sensitive in that area. And I have a tendency to immune weakness. I took a hard blow back there and I believe these hard blows, when they are chronic, always leave their mark, as though this is where we always need to pay attention.

But on the day to day level, there are no signs of IBD, colitis, or anything. Even I am shocked sometimes. My symptoms were powerful back then, for example I was almost 90% housebound for two years, I weighed less than 45Kg, had sometimes 20 bowel movements a day and was always losing blood and mucus, I couldn’t eat anything, was nauseous and semi anaemic. It was hard core and I had to dig so deep into my inner resources just to stay with it.
But I did.

And you can. Whoever is suffering from a ‘chronic dis-ease’ hear me good.

YOU CAN DO WHAT I HAVE DONE.
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What a month its been! The never ending mystery full body rash.

Yes you read that right.

If you are a Facebook friend of mine, and if you are not then jump over there now and join me, I’m very interactive and friendly https://www.facebook.com/kavijezziehockaday
you will know all about my recent experience with the onset of a very troubling full body rash that appeared almost ‘out of nowhere and left me reeling in shock and the most profound itching I have ever known.

I am happy (fingers crossed and prayers given) to report that finally it is yielding to everything I have thrown at it and I pray it is really beginning to recede, die down, and disappear. But it has left me confused, even bewildered and still without any real answers as to why it happened.

So here I am going to talk about it a bit, and blog about the need to know what is causing our issues, and how important it is to be able to connect cause with ailment, so we have a mental and emotional relationship with it, which means we might be able to have some influence and effect on it in the future, and particularly prevent it from happening again. If it was connected to lifestyle choices I want to know.

I am all about finding root causes. If I know why something is happening it gives me great insight and I can connect the dots. Mystery is so much more difficult to deal with. But the body, mind, emotional system is highly complex and there are so many influences when it comes to symptoms and illness that it can be almost impossible to discover a root cause.

That requires a different level of understanding and acceptance.

So this is some of the story:
I believe it traces back to last year, though I can’t prove it or know it conclusively.
Last year I began suffering from swollen calves, intermittently. I also started to get weaker and more tired. I think there was brain fog. And I had periods when I just didn’t feel myself. In January last year I had my mercury amalgams removed, and because I already had a weak immune system and slightly low thyroid function, it is entirely possible this whole thing undermined my entire physical being and laid the ground for subsequent events.
I went to see a kinesiologist because of my health issues and he confirmed that my detoxification pathways were sluggish and blocked, I did have mercury in my system and my lymphatic system was very poor.
To my regret I didn’t follow through with him at that time.

Cut to this year in Costa Rica. I was under a lot of stress and not handling it well. Life was very insecure and ungrounded and I was pushing my energy with too much coffee and adrenaline, getting myself caught in a bit of a vicious cycle. i do remember thinking, ‘this isn’t working,’ but I didn’t respond as I didn’t know what to do. I was eating great, a Paleo and raw food diet, doing some fasting and exercising, despite feeling tired. I wasn’t right but i kept going.

And then I got a small spot on my lower leg, maybe just a spot, maybe an insect bit, but just a tiny thing. And it wouldn’t heal. It stayed there for the next two months without doing anything. I have experienced slow and bad wound healing before, and had infections that have not healed, so i know the territory. And remember I said my immune system was under par? Well that would contribute to poor wound healing. As would poor circulation, which is thyroid related.

So we returned to England and still the spot, mark thing was still there, and eventually I went to see the doctor. Now i have no faith in doctors but I didn’t want to treatment but testing. Truth is my Ayurvedic practitioner told me to get it checked out as it was bigger by then and looked slightly worrying, like a cancer or something.

So thats when this phase really started.

Blood tests, and skin tests. Nothing revealed itself. No inflammation, no kidney problems, thyroid normal, nothing that would indicate why calves have been swollen or the spot on leg.

The doctor suggested I use some antibiotic cream because there was some infection. I accepted, reluctantly.

I used this stuff for the ext 7-10 days, not really seeing any change.
(Since that time I have read the ‘side effects of this fucidin cream…

  • Pain, stinging, burning sensation or redness of skin on application.
  • Skin rashes.
  • Contact dermatitis.
  • Skin itching or redness
  • Hives.
  • Skin blistering.
  • Conjunctivitis.
  • Allergic reactions, for example swelling of the skin, face, throat or tongue or difficulty breathing.

And then I stopped. After approximately 7 days I started seeing spots on my arms, then on my legs, then on my shoulders, and then on my torso. It happened quickly and very intensely. Pretty soon I had spots everywhere, getting very itchy. I had no fever and didn’t feel ill. Scared yes, but ill no.

What the heck was this? I have never had one allergy in my life. I have had rosacea eczema on my face twenty years ago. there was nothing to account for this.

I returned to the doctor and got zero answers. He referred me to dermatologist. They always do that, when they don’t know, which is usually, they refer you on, an endless merry go round of ‘specialist’ who have no clue about holistic health.

So the doctor gave me some more antibiotic cream and I went away for two week with my wife so she could write and I could try and heal this thing. I had seen my Ayurvedic practitioner and he diagnosed that I was reacting very badly to near collapse of the system because of stress overload and other factors. he gave me lots of herbs.

Those two weeks I got worse and worse, but never got ill. No fever, and no infection.

I focused as much as possible on health, not the problem. I did yoga every day, I juiced daily, ate a simple anti inflammatory diet, got fresh air, meditated, talked lovingly to my body and researched what on earth was going on.

Then it got so red and ‘angry’ that I went to the hospital. The emergency doctor gave me antihistamine tablets to take down the reaction, but had no idea why it had come. Still no cause.

I peeled. My whole body peeled layers of skin off.

I was very scared, and very very itchy to the point of insanity.

The peak point was going to Watford A and E when I thought I was getting seriously ill. We waited 5 hours to see a doctor who took all my vitals and announced it looked ‘like dermatitis.’ That was it..I mean, I knew it was feckin dermatitis,That just means inflammation of the skin!

He offered to take me into hospital and hydrate me, and pump me full of steroids. I declined.

When I woke the next morning I felt something had shifted and I knew I was going to get better.

And now I am here in Stockholm, nearly two weeks later. I am definitely on the mend, but it is slow. The rash has eased and is not so angry. The leg wounds are still nasty. And I still itch. But I am better.

Two days ago I went to a Chinese Doctor. I have a lot of experience of Chinese medicine and it really works, so I have great faith in it. He diagnosed I have heat and wind in the blood, he doesn’t know or care why. his job is to clear it. So I have bags of herbs to cook up twice a day (thats the usual Chinese protocol) and need to lay off heat producing foods like seafood and cauliflower.

I am hopeful. I still think, when this is cleared, that I need to address my whole system and get thoroughly tested, when we get to the US. I want to get a complete and convincing thyroid panel done, the test in UK by conventional medicine is sketchy and not reliable. I want mineral and vitamin test. I want to find out if there is mercury in my system. lets wait and see.

So before I show you a gallery of all the pictures I want to talk about the emotional and psychological impact and demands of this long and strange experience.

It has challenged me, mainly because of its unknown cause. But I had to decide at some point to accept its mystery and focus on health, feed myself good vibrations, and stay focused on the healing. But one can’t pretend either. So its a knife edge. It is a mystery, and it challenges us because its a mystery. Humans work on wanting to know why. I know I do. It drives me mad not to know. But I refuse to crumble under not knowing.

And here is one of the important points. I did not yield to the easiest course of action, which was steroids. I did do the antibiotics, and I did do a course of antihistamines but I felt that was as far down the rabbit hole of medication as I was prepared to go. I always prefer the natural route. And even though many many people advised me to go to emergency, doctors etc, they actually have done no good whatsoever. The best info has come from Ayurveda and Chinese Medicine. And the best treatments.

I’m sorry if this has been a long blog but I needed to get it off my chest.

Happy healing to you all.

Kavi – NOW the pictures!

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