The Need To Heal Old Wounds

From my personal experience, my research and coaching lots of clients I really have concluded this one simple yet profound truth:

When we deny old emotions and/or present difficult feelings we put an increased stress on our body, on our nervous system, immune system, and important organs like heart and thyroid, and our brain. Whether that actually ’causes’ illness or not is academic, because the bottom line is it really doesn’t help.

My holistic principle is to understand that which puts extra tax and burden on a delicate and finely balanced system (the human organism) is ultimately destructive, and will assist in early degradation of healthy life. As we age it gets harder and harder to bounce back and regenerate. Which means that as we get older we must get wiser and get MORE relaxed and more FREE of old burdens. Old burdens will rigidify us physically, mentally and spiritually unless we consciously release them. They might even kill us.

This point is not as nebulous or subtle as you may think. The river is meant to flow. If it doesn’t flow it stagnates. If it stagnates it becomes toxic and allows disease to happen. It is exactly the same with us. Energy is meant to flow through us. Old emotions and toxic thoughts impede this flow and become somehow ‘trapped’ in our cellular body. The same stagnation can happen. 

Thus detoxification is useful on the physical level AND the emotional energetic level. This proposition might annoy some people and even be dismissed as new age but I have experienced it and see it everywhere, and it is a self evident truth.

In my own healing journey, healing a huge auto immune condition (inflammatory bowel disease) it really wasn’t long in my detoxification process that I was propelled into the fury and powerful world of my pent up, hot, acidic and generally volatile emotions, the ones that I had buried and denied for years and years since the traumatic break up of my parents when I was 16 years old. I held on to the trauma for decades but could never access the pain and therefore never receive any healing. Make no mistake, trauma in the body, just because its not present in everyday experience, is powerful and dangerous. It’s not inert, meaning it doesn’t just sit there in a neutral state doing nothing. 

No, it has a negative power. It influences decisions, it can drive addictions and lifestyle choices. It ramps up stress response into hot stuff like rage or scary stuff like fear and anxiety. It may play a huge part in depression. It creates havoc with the nervous system and immune system, both of which have a DIRECT effect on health. It is known, for example, that stress has a direct impact on the gut micro biome, reducing healthy gut flora and allowing the ‘bad guys’ to gain the upper hand.

I truly believe that my healing had plateaued until I dived into my emotions. And then it catapulted into an increase in healing. It’s not the magic bullet but it is incredibly powerful.

I would go as far as to say you can’t truly heal without it.

If you are on the same journey that took me over 10 years, please listen. Do the emotional stuff. Find a way, find a resource. Follow your instinct for what your body wants, listen to your own inner voice, and get guidance from others who know this territory, and then fully embrace your healing. Even when it is difficult because dragging old stuff up hurts, still press on. It is far better that you meet the pain, and it hurts, and you release it, than you don’t meet it and it kills you.

I wish you love and blessings on your path.

Thanks for reading!

 

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DETOXIFICATION Brings us Face to Face with Ourselves.

Today is the final day of our new year cleanse. A big pot of Kitchari.


Tonight we take Epsom salts (or Prune Juice in my case as I’m sensitive to Epsom) and then tomorrow we may get rid of old toxins.

It hasn’t been very difficult but its always better to go somewhere neutral to do cleansing I find.
There are too many distractions and work related issues at home. It pulls you into the world, and a big part of detoxifying is to drop the world for a while and go inside.

That inner space doesn’t always have to be peaceful, it is more just a turning in another direction, inside instead of outside, and that turning attention within seems to do something, allowing the nervous system to relax, and allowing all old thoughts, beliefs and emotions to rise to the surface for healing.

The mind and the body follow each other, sometimes one leads and sometimes the other.

The point of holistic health is to get the relationship between these two apparently separate things (in truth they are not separate) as harmonious and fluid, as natural and relaxed, as possible.

When they are out of whack there is a disconnect between mind and body and between emotions and body, and between spirit and body, and that disconnect can become chronic and dangerous to the whole organism.
Much of illness has its roots in this disconnect. All chronic illness has its roots in this disconnection.

Healing it can seriously help restore connection and harmony. But to restore connection we may need to attend to the body and it’s stored ‘stuff,’ and by stuff I mean real life toxins from chemicals to heavy metals to pharmaceutical drugs etc etc AND old and toxic emotions that hurt and strain the system like pent up rage or guilt, old trauma and grievances.

Detoxification brings us face to face with ourselves. I guess that’s why so many people don’t like it.

The process is simple. As you go further into detoxification, through whichever method suits you (fasting, panchakarma, juicing, or specific diet) so old toxins and impurities that have hidden in your system for ages, become dislodged and begin to circulate, hopefully in readiness for elimination through various channels. This dislodging and circulating creates discomfort, both physically and emotionally, and creates a certain energetic invitation to revisit old memories and sometimes painful experiences. It brings up your stuff.

The task is to be able to allow all of these to be released, both physically AND mentally/emotionally. If you can’t release them emotionally they may well end up being re-stored in the body until you are ready. There is no ‘right or wrong’ about this, there is only readiness or unreadiness. So we do what we can, we prepare ourselves emotionally for the detoxification experience, support the body to release on the physical level and attend to our emotional and mental wellbeing by not getting too caught up in old triggers or dramas and becoming more equanimous.

That is not always easy. And it really doesn’t mean putting on a brave face or pretending it didn’t hurt or it doesn’t still hurt. Of course not. It means being real, and if it means crying or being angry then that’s what must happen. But it does mean not getting stuck anywhere with stories or righteousness or justification. It means FEELING IT FULLY AND LETTING IT GO.

Detoxification is the time to turn one’s love inwards and to take care and nurture oneself, physically and emotionally. If we want lightness and freedom to flow in our lives, we have to give that lightness and freedom to our own bodies, our own cells and our own emotional wellbeing. It is a valuable time for restoration and is a wonderful antidote to the world that constantly pulls us outwards into forever doing. Everything about the modern world is based on activity, on doing things, on the speed we move at, on time itself, of which there never seems to be enough.

Detoxification turns all that on its head and invites us to drop it, at least for a while. No wonder its challenging.

HAPPY NEW HEALING!

Thanks for reading.

 

 

What Is Health?

I visited my chiropractor this morning for my regular and ongoing treatment (I’m having a series of treatments to realign – fantastic) and, while I was on the coach, he asked me a question, ‘What does health mean to you?’

After the session we dived in to the question between us and tried to unravel it a bit. Because its actually quite complex in its answer.

Sure, ‘health’ can mean no illness, as in ‘I’m ok and feeling pretty good.’

But when you dive into what it really could mean you find all sorts of issues.

To the ancient cultures of India and China health means an inner harmony between mind, body and spirit. They are holistic by definition. But the western mind has grown up with a largely different mindset. That mindset is founded in separation. It means that we innately think of everything as separate from everything, and independent of everything else. That means we can easily think of the body as separate from the mind and spirit. And western medicine almost without fail follows this model.

Eastern health systems recognize a natural intelligence that informs everything, and their practices attempt to align us with that natural intelligence. Chi, Prana, Lifeforce are some of the terms used.

Western mind and western medicine has no particular term for this intelligence because it doesn’t recognize it exists.

Yet even western medicine and health understands there is a connection between mind and body. What is stress if not evidence that emotions and thoughts have a physical impact?

And of course we as human beings are implicitly interconnected with our environment, as much as the goldfish is connected with the water in its bowl. Sadly our society paradigms are built on a belief in separation and the prowess of mental accomplishment and all it signifies. Inner harmony has little credibility in today’s world. There is no time for it.

So we have problems when talking about what health means.

But we arrived at some conclusions between us. Let me list them a bit and see if they resonate:

  1. Health is a state whereby the natural intelligence of the organism is free to flow.
  2. Health is inner and outer harmony.
  3. Health is the absence of dis-ease, a natural state of easiness.
  4. Health is a state of peace.

To me the ultimate state of health is spiritual peace, because in that state of deep acceptance there is only love, and in that love the body is free to follow its own course. We are all finite beings and everything has its day, it rises and then it falls back into the earth. Peace is the acceptance of this, and there can be no greater health that this.

I am only scratching the surface here but I wanted to open the door to a deeper conversation with you. I wonder what health means to you?

Please let me know in the comment section below..

What Happens If You Turn Your Back On The Conventional Medicine Paradigm

I talk with many people along the path, and when they discover my journey with chronic illness and what I have done to heal it, almost everyone becomes intrigued and can relate to it.

In the circles I move in, which are mostly the spiritual circles, the holistic circles and the ‘evolutionary movement’ circles, everyone without fail is frustrated and feels let down by the conventional medical model. Everyone sees through its efficacy and ability to be truly holistic. And everyone without fail is experimenting with alternatives, exploring what healing actually means, and stepping outside the conventional matrix in their search.

That makes things pretty exciting, but also pretty scary. Because in so many ways THERE IS NO MAP.

And I have to say there is more of a map than there used to be. And here is the most important point to understand on the healing path.

The map only shows the way. Like all journeys, it is the DOING of it, the STEP BY STEP actuality of it, that changes anything.

That is a totally different mindset from conventional medicine. This mainstream approach does not involve you, does not demand any participation from you other than taking the meds or turning up for the operation. Please remember I am not talking about acute emergency treatments here, but mainly lifestyle caused chronic conditions.

But many folks are very scared of taking the unknown ‘path less trodden.’ And from what I see many are stuck between a rock and a hard place. They are caught between the mainstream medical model and the alternative ‘find your own path’ model. And so they don’t embrace either one.

To those people I say, ‘Don’t sit on the fence. Commit to one way or another. Or find your balance between the two. But find your own heart, find your own authentic path, find your power somehow. That will be the defining ingredient in your actions.’

The key is to finding your own inner authority, intuition and intelligence.

My ‘healing’ was about reaching a state of inner harmony and wisdom in which I learned to accept the things I could not change and change the things I could.

Wellbeing is about adaptability and flexibility. Too often we are reading that wellbeing is only achieved through rigorous training, exact exercises and punitive diet. That is not wellbeing. Thats self punishment.

Sure it all has its place, and discipline is a vital component in self mastery. But the key is inner wisdom and ‘warrior-like’ poise. Self knowledge and knowledge of the natural law is key to everything.

And the ultimate healing principles are found, not in the body, or even in the emotions, but in the inner sanctum of the heart and soul. The ultimate healing is that of making peace with everything within and without.

If you can resolve everything into love’s deepest acceptance, come what may, then you are ‘home’ and it will not matter what happens. It is not easy, and it is a path that unfolds, but it is a practice that brings depth and conscious awareness to your life.

And from that divine place you can work in a relaxed and forgiving way with your own body, loving it back to health, or letting go of it as we all must ultimately do.

Be well.

Mung Soup – Detox and Nourish – Food for the SOUL

Try this ancient and rebalancing Ayurvedic recipe. Devote one day a week, we do Monday, and drink this soup for the whole day. You will not starve and will reap enormous benefits.
The soup is highly nutritious and naturally detoxifies the body. It works by cleansing the liver, gall bladder and vascular system of any ama (undigested toxins). If you follow it for a few days you will lose weight, as well as any retained water and feel lighter, clearer and more energised-but you need to have a little willpower initially, though it does tend to get easier day by day.

 

This soup:

Cleanses the body of toxins and residues (including heavy metals) by cleaning all the body’s subtle channels.
Balances the Vata, Pitta and kapha dosha, important in Ayurvedic understanding
Corrects digestive fire (or agni)
Sharpens the mind, providing tranquillity, energy and vitality
Promotes weight loss, reduces swelling and water retention

Mung Bean Soup Recipe:
You will need:
400g mung beans (whole green or split green or yellow but green is best
2 litres water
½ tsp. turmeric powder
2 pinch asafoetida or Hing (optional – we don’t use it)
2/3 tsps of fresh root ginger
2-3 cloves garlic
Half an onion
Ghee or olive oil
1 tsp. each of cumin powder and coriander powder.
rock salt or herb salt

Wash the mung beans thoroughly and then soak them either over night or for at least four hours before cooking.
Heat ghee or olive oil in a pan and add a teaspoon of turmeric powder and 2 pinches asafoetida (to take the gas quality out of the beans).
Sauté for a few seconds and then add the soaked beans, fresh water and some fresh root ginger. For one part soaked mung you need about four parts of water.
The amounts given above will make 5 generous portions.
Leave to bubble away for 30-40 minutes and add more water if necessary. Continue to cook until all the beans are soft and broken up. If you use a pressure cooker, the soup needs cooking for only 8 minutes once the vessel has come to pressure. You can then turn off the heat and leave the pot to cool for a further 10 minutes before opening it.
Once the beans are cooked, heat some ghee or olive oil in another pan, add 2-3 cloves of chopped garlic and half a chopped onion and sauté lightly for a minute until soft but still aromatic.
Now add some finally chopped fresh root ginger. Next add one teaspoon of cumin and coriander powder plus any other herbs or spices (except chillies which are too heating), such as cardamom seeds, black pepper, black cumin seeds etc. and briefly sauté. Add these sautéed spices plus some rock salt into the mung beans and continue to simmer for a further few minutes. Don’t add salt in the beginning, as this makes the beans tougher and they therefore take longer to cook. Serve the soup warm with a good squeeze of lime juice, and some fresh coriander leaves, finely chopped and stirred into the soup.

If you feel like a little variety, you can also add green leafy vegetables, pumpkin or courgettes. You can also blend the soup for a better consistency and flavour.
ENJOY!
Any question please get in touch.

Buck the System and Find Your Own Way

Haggard in 2005

Did you know I got very sick in 2005 and was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, and given a prognosis of medication for life, an incurable illness and probably surgery to remove my colon?
It was pretty serious, as were my symptoms.
None of the things they told me that day came true.
I took ABSOLUTELY NO MEDICATION from that day to this, for that disease. None, nada.
I have had NO SYMPTOMS of UC for a few years. I don’t care whether that constitutes a ‘cure’ or not. It’s gone.
As for the ‘surgery to remove my colon.’ WTF?
I am 58 years old. If I had believed all they told me and not undertaken my own research, inquiry and attempts to heal (which took a long long time and much dedication) I would have been medicated up to the eye balls with steroid and anti inflammatories immediately and that would have put all sorts of pressure on a system that was already under pressure. I would have gotten weaker and sicker, and NEVER HEALED. Thus I would probably have had my colon removed .
I walked out of the hospital and decided to find my own way. I know thats pretty scary and wild, but thats what I did and it led me to my own power and authority.
And my healing.
That makes me a warrior. 

Now, sometimes you have just got to go with the medical model, and take great advice from those who know more than you do. But honestly, looking at the whole thing from my perspective after this long journey, I would say that most people have given over way too much authority and power and influence to a system that DOES NOT have healing as its core principle. If you really want healing, whatever that might mean to you, I am afraid that at some point you will have to buck the system and find your own way.

That’s the way it is. Bucking the system means you will have to take deeper and more intense responsibility for what is happening in your body/mind system. It will inevitably bring you face to face with yourself, your wounds, traumas, fears, hurts, angers and grievances. It will bring up your stuff on emotional and means levels, and thats the transformative power of it.

If you can grow into that, take responsibility, become wiser and more knowledgeable, find healers and alternative professionals who will support you and guide, and resolve the energetic stuckness that underpins all physical issues, you are very likely to heal, to grow, to transform in ways that are unimaginable.

Or you can just carry on.

I chose to buck the system. It never worked for me except for diagnosis and testing, even then I have my doubts. It didn’t offer me the hope or possibility I needed. That had to come from me. It’s in everyone, it’s in you.

Thanks for reading!

ULTIMATE Anti-Inflammatory and Digestive Aid – AND AFFORDABLE

ULTIMATE Anti-Inflammatory and digestive aid.

 

FERMENTED TURMERIC AND GINGER:
AND KOMBUCHA.

I have worked hard over the last few weeks/months to understand and grow my own ‘scoby.’ As a result we now have loads of excellent quality Kombucha..It is delicious and fantastic for gut health and healing.

But this last week I have taken it to a new level. I researched how to ferment turmeric and ginger. And then I use the fermented juice from the turmeric and ginger to flavor the Kombucha and it tastes WOW!!!!!
You can taste and feel how powerful and healing it is. Gut healing and anti inflammatory – YES.

So now we have the turmeric and ginger on the side of the plate with regular sauerkraut AND whenever we need we have the Kombucha to drink.

Seriously folks, this is the cheap and delicious way to get your gut health together and utilize regular anti inflammatory agents into your diet.

 

Its the habits we do over and over again that create health or illness, not the one off things we take or do.

If you want to know more let me know and I will try for a video.

Never underestimate the healing power of these simple mixtures and recipes. They are profound, they have been known about for a long time, but have been forgotten. And we are finding more and more novel ways to help ourselves as time goes on.