Buck the System and Find Your Own Way

Haggard in 2005

Did you know I got very sick in 2005 and was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, and given a prognosis of medication for life, an incurable illness and probably surgery to remove my colon?
It was pretty serious, as were my symptoms.
None of the things they told me that day came true.
I took ABSOLUTELY NO MEDICATION from that day to this, for that disease. None, nada.
I have had NO SYMPTOMS of UC for a few years. I don’t care whether that constitutes a ‘cure’ or not. It’s gone.
As for the ‘surgery to remove my colon.’ WTF?
I am 58 years old. If I had believed all they told me and not undertaken my own research, inquiry and attempts to heal (which took a long long time and much dedication) I would have been medicated up to the eye balls with steroid and anti inflammatories immediately and that would have put all sorts of pressure on a system that was already under pressure. I would have gotten weaker and sicker, and NEVER HEALED. Thus I would probably have had my colon removed .
I walked out of the hospital and decided to find my own way. I know thats pretty scary and wild, but thats what I did and it led me to my own power and authority.
And my healing.
That makes me a warrior. 

Now, sometimes you have just got to go with the medical model, and take great advice from those who know more than you do. But honestly, looking at the whole thing from my perspective after this long journey, I would say that most people have given over way too much authority and power and influence to a system that DOES NOT have healing as its core principle. If you really want healing, whatever that might mean to you, I am afraid that at some point you will have to buck the system and find your own way.

That’s the way it is. Bucking the system means you will have to take deeper and more intense responsibility for what is happening in your body/mind system. It will inevitably bring you face to face with yourself, your wounds, traumas, fears, hurts, angers and grievances. It will bring up your stuff on emotional and means levels, and thats the transformative power of it.

If you can grow into that, take responsibility, become wiser and more knowledgeable, find healers and alternative professionals who will support you and guide, and resolve the energetic stuckness that underpins all physical issues, you are very likely to heal, to grow, to transform in ways that are unimaginable.

Or you can just carry on.

I chose to buck the system. It never worked for me except for diagnosis and testing, even then I have my doubts. It didn’t offer me the hope or possibility I needed. That had to come from me. It’s in everyone, it’s in you.

Thanks for reading!

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AUTO IMMUNE ISSUES: The Sacred Boundary of Self Violated

ALL AUTO IMMUNE PEOPLE: The Sacred Boundary of Self:

If you have an auto immune condition, please look beyond the physical level for your healing. You probably wont heal unless you do.
You can look for the magic bullet that cures you, you wont find it.
You can search the physical plane, the world of one cause for the effect, but you wont find it.
You can stay locked in this land of separation, but it wont heal you.

NO…

You must look beyond the linear and dive into the murky world, the world of emotion, mind, spirit, into beliefs and wounds.
It is not optional.

An auto immune condition means that the sacred boundary of self has been breached, physically in the gut wall and thus the immune system, and energetically and metaphorically in the sense of self we carry from birth to death.

You as a self, a small self, have a boundary that protects you and keeps you safe. It is an entirely natural function that happens almost unconsciously when things are flowing and harmonious in ones life.

BUT…Trauma, wounding, abuse, shock and terror, fear and stress when experienced in childhood or youth, CAN set the pre-conditions for subsequent auto immune conditions.
They don’t necessarily cause it, but they can participate in it to a great degree. They are a part of the condition.

For those who are experiencing auto immune, you simply must look into this area of your life. It really matters.

And this comes from personal experience and from working with other people.
Don’t take my word for it. Inquire within. Explore this idea for yourself, truthfully and deeply.

A Fundamental Error in Health, Healing and the Body.

Our number one fundamental error when it comes to health and healing, wellbeing, illness and even our approach to the body itself, is this:

We assume all our answers are going to be found on the linear level of reality. We are so embedded in this causal reality with all its rules that we are unable to traverse the mysterious inner world where everything is interconnected and changeable, where matter and consciousness blend into the same thing and, ultimately, where there is no ‘real world,’ only consciousness.

When we allow ourselves to entertain new possibilities and new explorations, and we dive into the murky world of emotions, into the prison of conditioned thinking and beliefs, into our cultural conditioning itself, and even further into the nature of reality, we open the door to all kinds of awareness and insights, into a whole new vista of previously unexplored potential.

And that potential is packed with transformational energy. That potential is the potential of miracles and spontaneous healing.
Thats pretty much the only way we can access the doorway.

THINK BEYOND THE BOX.

Most people either don’t want to or simply can’t get far enough beyond the ‘in the box’ thinking for them to imagine other realities or possibilities. But that is really what we must do in order to transform or heal.

HOW?

First you must imagine that it is possible. It must enter your world through the imagination. Imagination opens the door of possibility.

Then you have to explore and experience. You have to meet what you experience openly, and when there is contraction and judgement you must commit to surrendering it. It is a constant deepening, a voyage to the centre of life. A journey into the heart of darkness. The gifts are incalculable. Sometimes miraculous.

You must persist beyond your comfort zone and break out.  Willingness itself makes this possible.

Sometimes you need someone to guide you and assist the journey.

Thats what I do.

 

Ancestral Wounds, Holistic Healing and Spiritual Inquiry – New Podcast

Ancestral Wounds, Holistic Healing and Spiritual Inquiry.

A new podcast is available.
This one follows on form last weeks.

These two quotes sum up this weeks episode:

I feel very strongly that I am under the influence of things or questions which were left incomplete and unanswered by my parents and grandparents and more distant ancestors. It often seems as if there were an impersonal karma within a family which is passed on from parents to children. It has always seemed to me that I had to answer questions which fate had posed to my forefathers, and which had not yet been answered, or as if I had to complete, or perhaps continue, things which previous ages had left unfinished.” Carl Jung 

My physician explained that ongoing adversity in childhood leads to a chronic state of “fight, flight or freeze.” Researchers at Yale had recently shown that when inflammatory stress hormones flood a child’s body and brain, they alter the genes that oversee our stress reactivity, re-setting the stress response to “high” for life. This increases the risk of inflammation, which manifests later in cancer, heart disease, and autoimmune diseases like mine.’ Donna Jackson Nakazawa

Everything that happens on the level of form is a call to holistic inquiry.
This podcast dives deeper down the rabbit hole of emotions and the body, ancestral wounds and childhood conditioning.
A powerful message for all those looking for transformation, joy, love, health and freedom.
‘Holistic Wisdom is a Lived and Embodied Spirituality that has its feet planted firmly on the ground and has its roots deep in the mud of our humanity, yet its branches reach to the heavens.
And in between its roots and its branches is the healthy flow of energy.
Its simple, natural and very profound.’
Symptoms, wounds, issues from the past, trouble in relationship, depression, addiction, lostness, anxiety, all auto immune diseases, in fact any chronic condition are ALL pointing us to Holistic Inquiry, the Great Looking Inwards.
We fail to understand this and try and deal with them on the surface, because thats all we know and thats all we are offered by the mainstream medical model.
Matters discussed: The existential meaning of Thyroid Dysfunction and other chronic dis-eases. Ancestral burdens and the negative power of traumatic conditioning.
Fear as a factor in illness.
The wake up call of illness.

And available on iTunes:

 

A request for support to get thoroughly medically tested

Help me return to this

Help me return to this

Friends of my blog, some of you may know and most don’t know but this year I have experienced the most incredible skin problems, from a full body peeling rash in which my arms and legs swelled up, to some extremely painful weals that appeared on my legs, and are still around…

I’m here in California and have no insurance, and now I simply have to get thoroughly tested to find out and address what the heck is going on. I live very very healthy, I have detoxified to the max, I healed my Ulcerative Colitis, I am emotionally and mentally grounded and clear, and yet something is still not right.

I NEED YOUR HELP. If I can raise some money I can get properly tested at a good testing centre here in California.I do not have the money..If you helped by even a small amount I would be so grateful…I am  here to do good work uplifting others and helping transform the world from its present state of breakdown…But its so much harder when my own vehicle is suffering…

PLEASE CHECK OUT MY ‘You Caring’ site and consider this…Its  rare that I make this request but needs must..Thank you so much for reading…
The link: https://www.youcaring.com/kavi-jezzie-hockaday-661853

Or click the picture below.

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Here are some of the pictures of what Ive been through. I wont show any more, its not fair to anyone..
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The Detox Project is Live, FREE and online

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I am happy to pass this information on…Detoxification has been the single most important element of my own journey with healing. I truly believe I would not have resolved my Inflammatory Bowel Disease unless I started with huge detoxification. 

And believe me, I had huge amounts of toxicity in my body from years of pharmaceutical and chemical grade drugs, drink and toxic diet.

The more information you have about detox the wiser your choice can be.

The Detox Project is HAPPENING NOW!
Detoxify your body to aid in prevention of–and possibly overcome–chronic illnesses! The unhealthy amounts of chemicals and toxins in our bodies are causing tremendously negative consequences. Let’s overcome this crisis! Don’t miss The Detox Project from September 26 – October 3, 2016, free and online!

Every day, more people become aware of the absolute necessity to detoxify in order to prevent and possibly overcome chronic illnesses. Yet, few have a comprehensive detox plan, or access to experts in the health industry who can help build one. If you have health problems, chemical sensitivities, allergies, autoimmune conditions and/or weight issues, take the time to learn if chemicals and toxins in your environment could be the cause! All reasons not to miss The Detox Project, online and free from September 26 – October 3, 2016!

TODAYS offering sounds very interesting..

DAY 4 (September 29, after 10am US eastern)
You can get well through detox! Hear personal stories from our speakers about overcoming cancer, Lyme disease, allergies, weight gain, thyroid problems and autoimmunity through detoxification. Enjoy learning!
Follow the link to join…Listen free.

The Detox Project – Click here

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Auto Immune 101…WHY are you sick, not what disease do you have?

I am going to lay it out very clearly for anyone who has symptoms that indicate something is going on inside them that is not right.
diagnosis_post2If you, or anyone else, has had the diagnosis of the dreaded ‘auto immune disease,’ please read this simple blog. I am writing it to simplify what sounds very mysterious.
We are rendered powerless by this very phrase ‘auto immune disease.’ I know I was many years ago. And not just because I had no idea what it actually meant but also because the doctors seemed mystified and ineffective at actually treating it.

THE TRUTH IS THEY DON’T ACTUALLY TREAT IT.

THEY SUPPRESS AND HIDE IT.

Now I am not a doctor so cannot argue on the level of ‘doctor speak’ so I will have to keep this basic and human. If your immune system is overactive and attacking itself, it is doing it for a reason. That is just basic common sense. Everything in life, everything, happens for a reason. It is the law of cause and effect. Things don’t happen without a cause, there cannot be just effect, it is impossible.

So if your immune system was ok at some point earlier in your life, and now is reacting in what seems to be an attacking way, something has provoked it. Something has caused, and is causing, your immune system to overdo it.

Any intelligent researcher, investigator or detective would ask the million dollar question, ‘What is causing it?’

Without knowing what is actually causing it, how can you really treat it effectively. If you have an infestation of termites and you just stand there killing the termites one at a time hoping the infestation will stop it’s never going to work. You need to find the termite nest. You need to get to the source and deal with the problem.

autoimmuneIt is basic Auto Immune 101. Search for the cause. Treat the cause. Symptoms disappear.

But the medical system with all it’s genius, science, sophistication and complexity cannot and does not do this.
Now, sometimes action has to be taken urgently because someone is in danger due to the ravaging effects of their symptoms. If the forest fire is tearing through the town it has to be stopped in its tracks. And medically speaking sometimes that might involve immunosuppressants and steroids, or strong herbs and so on. But these treatments are not the long term solution. They cannot be because they are not resolving the core issue of what is causing the fire to start!

Always we come back to the same point. Buy time if you must with medication and intervention (I personally didn’t, I just hung on in there while the acute phase was happening, and committed to detoxification) but for heavens sake get wise and find the cause of your issue.

INFLAMMATION AND GUT DYSBIOSIS.

OK I have just saved you days, weeks or months of research.

Yes, these two things are probably the two causal factors in your auto immune condition. Your job is to explore deeper and answer the questions, ‘What is causing the chronic inflammation and gut dysbiosis and how do I treat it effectively and as naturally as possible?

It could be a number of things, from virus to pathogens, toxins, environmental poisons, mould, trigger foods, vaccines etc etc. All these things, and more, can cause can be the precursor to a chronic inflammatory response in the body.

intestineAnd since the seat of the immune system is held in the delicate balance and harmony and integrity of the gut, it is clearly obvious that integrity, balance of bacteria and microbes, restoration of gut wall, elimination of candida, parasites etc must happen for the immune system to ‘calm down.’

These two areas alone, tested for, researched, and acted upon with intention and purpose, may well have such a profound effect on your ‘symptoms and dis-ease’ that it disappears, and relatively quickly. Of course it depends how deeply embedded it is in the body and how much destruction has already happened.

It also depends on your mental and emotional state and stress levels.
What I am offering you here is a starting point above and beyond what your doctor might be offering you. Inflammation is excellent when it is acute and disastrous when it is chronic. Remember that one truth and it will carry you a long way. Gut dysbiosis is absolutely definitely totally going to have to be dealt with if you are sick, or just feeling crap, or have low energy, headaches, allergies, or if you have taken medication, particularly antibiotics. 

It may be frustrating, and sometimes my words will echo as too simplistic, but I promise you there is a way through. It will take some time to reveal why it is happening but once found you then have your starting point for the adventure of your lifetime, the healing path.
And with great persistence and dedication, with help from professionals who understand what I am saying, health and wellbeing should rise, and may be better than ever. It is never guaranteed in this life, but what is there to lose!

But your doctor will not tell you any of this.

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References:
http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2009/09/08/what-you-need-to-know-about-inflammation.aspx

http://drhyman.com/blog/2010/07/30/how-to-stop-attacking-yourself-9-steps-to-heal-autoimmune-disease/

http://bodyecology.com/articles/inflammation_cause_of_disease_how_to_prevent.php